Thursday, December 25, 2008

the day when i get presents.

first of all, MERRY HOHO CHRISTMAS to one and all!!!
i'm lazy.
to blog about taiwan coz i got 900++ pics to choose from.

since it's christmas, i got presents and they get better every year!!!
i just got back from a party and i should be sleeping but yea...

recently, i worked in mummy's office on mon and tues with joel, really fun but tiring.
and went out with brandon, cheryl, shermaine and joel for shopping and dinner.
haha, it's really been long since everyone got together like this.
and since we like doing stupid things.....
we ate some restaurant, then a waitress named irene took our orders.
so after we finished, we all said "thank you irene" altogether.
haha, and after a while, the waiter who gave us the bill was named daniel.
so i went "hey daniel, thanks for the bill."

anyway, i got FOB's folie a deux, so far so good, have yet to listen to every song though.

a year ago, we had a christmas sleepover.
lasted one night, filled with presents, laughter and funny stuff.
heidi, fiona, tim, shiwee, riz and joshua were there,
we had stuff to eat,
tricked tim twice,
watched movies,
and the first to sleep had to drink water from the elastic reservoir.
but most importantly,
it was so much fun,
and i wish there were more days,
where the few of us,
so far apart,
can come again once again again and again,
to celebrate what we achieved and kept close in times where everything seemed to fall,
friendship.


oh, you were there too, at least you won't go now.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

FUN TAIWAN

BLOGGING FROM TAIWAN.
hahahahahaha,
i'm currently at this four star hotel called WONSTAR(onestar) hotel. XD
i've just finished my 1500km journey all over taiwan in 5 days and i'm happy about it.
lol, i bought A LOT A LOT of things, so many that i think we needa get one more lauggage bag soon.
bag, shoes, bling, fragrances, food, clothing.....
so basically, i'm gonna reach s'pore on a saturday night.
btw, my hotel is in taipei.
took lots of pics too.
okok, anyway, i'm gonna blog more when i get back.
cheers everyone! :D
ps: i got gifts for ppl.

Friday, December 5, 2008

7 days.

It's gonna be a long post, so get ready.

MONDAY 1/12/2008
First day of guitar camp, and everyone reported to the room at 8 in the morning.
I brought tons of stuff (mostly) junk and hope it would be of use.
So anyway, the camp was a training camp, and it is really tiring, but can't be helped because of our christmas concert and lack of time.
Basically, we practised the first day, and when it was 5, we went to get ready for was to come in the night.
6 classes, 1 for boys, 2 for girls, 1 for exco, 2 for miscellaneous stuff(like practice rooms)
lol, nicholas brought his laptop to play left for dead, and it's a WOW game.
8:30, we all reported to the foyer with our guitars and scores, and prepared to perform.
clarence and i played "retrace" by anberlin and "little wonders" by rob thomas.
THEN, after the performance, we went to the room to play karaoke party on heather's laptop, had fun singing to songs like "don cha" by PCD, "womanizer" by Britney Spears.
lol, us guys had to strain our voices until we sounded like gays.
i brought out my junk, which were mainly light sticks and chips, handed to everyone for fun.
then during the gift exchange, everyone thought my present looked like a watermelon wrapped in newspaper, but little did they know that it was actually rootbeer.
lol, i got a singing teddy bear from elizabeth.
i think i slept after that. XD

TUESDAY 2/12/2008
woke up at 5 to make water bombs,
then practice as usual.
basically, we practised for 10.5 hours, all the way into the night.
and in the middle, we had our wet games, really fun! haha, yee en is the most suay, because out of the 10+ bombs that she threw in my direction, less than half of it hit me, the rest rolled off my body.
pei ying and elizabeth ATTEMPTING to carry the whole dustbin of water bombs that were made in the morning.

Me after the morning.

WEDNESDAY 3/12/2008
This day was only half a day, we invited SAC over to play with us, and we practised till 12 then went home. HOME.

THURSDAY 4/12/2008
Had to reach school by 12, then took a bus to ACJC for their concert rehersal.
haha, i don't wanna elaborate on that day because today was pretty much the same.

FRIDAY 5/12/2008
HAD TO REACH SHCOOL BY 8:45!!!
lol, for a SYF mock audition, and safe to say, i pass!!! which means i don't have to take the real auditions, but still i should keep improving.
Until 12, we had to put up the decorations and stuff, so i was running errands, and helping out a lot.
When all the schools came, we were a bit late for the rehersal.
still, managed to pull off everything.
lol, i made loads of friends these few days, and i wanna thank my friends and family for coming to the concert to support me.




NOW, i am extremely tired, and exhausted all over my aching body.
i'm leaving for taiwan tomorrow people, won't be back till 13, please don't call me and i have to say that i'm in taiwan. XD
night.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I miss love.

12:44am.
can't sleep and don't know why.
fishing later today at 7am, excited, but i should be sleeping.

i admit.
i miss love.
not referring to a person.
but rather the feeling of being in love.
i watch DECENT couples down the street, eating breakfast together, gazing into one another's eyes, holding hands, talking and laughing about the silliest things that keeps that attraction strong.
and i envy them, because i haven't fell in love for a long time.
probably because i yearn for love, but the thought of losing someone you love even the slightest bit is too painful.
it's tiring and miserable.
but hey, that's a price to pay for love.
i think i gotta be more patient, can't neglect my studies now.

"Lucky" by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
is making me feel nostalgic.

then again, what can i do to not miss love? hmm, if anyone finds an answer, please tell.

i just bought jason mraz, keane and slipknot's albums today.

guitar grade exam next friday, can't wait to gain some experience.

ugh, and i still can't sleep.
wonder if i'll catch anything big later.....
i'll take pics, that's for sure.

my maid's leaving tomorrow, so it's that time for chores and cooking again.



"oh my, just defying reasons why is an absolutely insane resolution to live by."

one more love song, then bedtime.

Friday, November 21, 2008

It was just how you looked in the light.

UGH.
Tuition from 9:30 to 11:30, rushed down from bugis to school for guitar after that, and guitar ended at 5:30.
Good news, i get to use the school's 1.5K guitar.
but i'll be under-utilising my other guitars. :(

SOANYWAY
hereisthepictureofthestarbuckscups,theoneontheleftistim'sandtheoneontherightismine.XD



yea, can't wait for FOB's new album in Dec.
and i needa save $$ to get stuff from taiwan!
this year, a lot people i know are going taiwan, and i mean a lot.
i'm going on the 6th to 13th.
but i have guitar camp from 1st to 3rd, and two concerts on the 4th and 5th.

OH YEA, PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU WANNA GO FOR tpjc's christmas guitar concert on the 5th of dec in tpjc's auditorium which is FREE for anyone.

ok, i got nothing to do on a friday night.
wow.
i think i'll go eat now.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

HIBERNATE

It's been a long time since the last post, mostly because i couldn't find the mood or inspiration to blog. So far the "holidays" were spent going to school, going out with friends, playing PS3, stoning and tuition. Have to say that i kinda miss school days, where you get to see everyone.

These few days, i got time to catch up with the BC.
haha, last sunday, fiona, tim and i went to get heidi's present, which is this "Lovely" perfume by sarah jessica parker.
So tim and i met around 3, and i was stuck watching him do one question of his chem for 2 hours before fiona came. Then we got heidi's present and fiona got us free tickets to this sax concert by Jean Fourmeau with piano acconmpanist Michiyo Haneshi. Haha, i'm gonna leave out some details of the conert.
So anyway, we ate at Bugis junction foodcourt where all of us had beef noodles.
and YES, fiona actually knows that even brown cows can produce milk. XD

Yesterday (Wednesday), Heidi, tim and i met up to help tim with his maths and econs. Fiona couldn't make it. haha, so i met tim first and we grabbed lunch. Then went to starbucks where we settled down to study. I bought a venti size vanilla latte and tim got the same, but tall size.
SO he took a pic of the cup sizes and i don't have it, but will put it up soon!
haha, heidi was 2 hours late for a good reason too, because tim took pretty long to do his maths.
and i passed heidi the perfume, which i wrapped, which is better than someone else's wrapping.
okay, so it got cold and we went outside.
heidi took my phone and spammed it with her face.



haha, and put it on my wallpaper.

so we basically sat there until 7, went to eat dinner at foodcourt(and i had beef noodles again)stayed till 9 and went home.


It's really good to have friends who were with me for 4 years to meet up and are ready to have another eternity of friendship.

haha, and there's still some more things to do!
1)PRAWNING
2)BC SLEEPOVER

Tim: if you read this, please send me the pic of the starbucks cups.


It was tough gripping on, not for me but for us.
We wouldn't let you slip into the trench, but yet you struggled to get in.
At first, we didn't know why, but as it became more evident, we let go,
and we rose.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Rock and Blues.

Even though R&B has died,
it's still alive in me.
I've been listening to a lot of David Tao recently, and love the way he can hit his high notes with lots of tone and depth.
but i can't.
and so, i will refrain from singing his songs, but not playing them.

really really tired these few days,
even now when i'm in front of my com, doing my i&r and blogging, i feel like closing my eyes.
sleeeeeepy.

damn, op dry run tomorrow at 2 or 3, and i'm waking up damn early.
ugh, need sleep.
sleepy sleep.
zzz.

chinese was alright, don't wanna talk about it.

nowadays, i find myself at home with nothing to do.
it's either my friends can't go out, or my parents don't want me out.
but if i'm not out, i find myself rotting at home playing games till i get a splitting headache.
jeez, i need a good rest soon.
some r&r.

"once you find yourself caught deep in the abyss,
you'd scream as the fluid collapse your lungs,
pressure forcing into your body,
crumpling your flesh into a ball.
you see red, and know where it's from,
but you can't help it,
because by now,
you know you're as good as dead."

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

The day before tomorrow.

so it's tomorrow, the MT A'levels.
it's been lurking all this while and i've never been a bit scared.
why?
because i've done all i can over the year,
so what can I do in exactly a day?
revise.
all that i've learnt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL AND JOSEPH.

today, we gave joel his presents.
one was exceptionally exceptional.
and we made him into believing the wildest thing.


ANYWAY

i'm supposed to be revising now.
not really in the mood to blog these few days,
must be the weather.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Monday, October 20, 2008

ONE FINE DAY.

written report has finally ended, and a whole new chapter of OP and I&R begins.

shermaine just asked me to watch a show on channel 8, about people who change the lives of those unfortunate for the better, and i feel that i've been taking my living conditions for granted.

now, i'm waiting for open office to download because apparently, i only have a trial version of the vista powerpoint on my com. really need to rush on op tomorrow because my dry run is on wednesday.

was planning to go out with heidi, fiona and timothy on saturday, but heidi couldn't make it, so we decided to postpone until after the op period. really hope to see all of you guys soon.

today, i came home early and decided to go cycling, and on my way around pasir ris, i met really unexpected people whose names i will not mention here because it will cause an alarm.


Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy.
Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.
You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop.
You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you. You will be the one screaming out.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you've ever had, the best thing that you've ever, ever
had.
It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

"High and Dry" by Radiohead


I've been listening to songs that bring in the nostalgia and city lights,
they've been outside my window and it's these moments that bring me to wonder if i really exist.
Sometimes, i feel dizzy believing that i'm me,
guess i need more confidence in my life.

65% to go....sian

i wonder if i can skip school tomorrow, then can do my op fully.





Thursday, October 16, 2008

right before your very eyes.

Love has always been blind.
think:
you always had a crush on someone,
and wished that the person felt the same,
eventually, you get what you want and you're together with that person.
so what?
you fail to predict, anticipate all that has to come,
you fail to keep up with your studies,
you burn a hole in your pocket,
all you do is fight,
and fight,
and fight,
eventually you're on the verge,
and you tell that person: "if you love me, you'll give in".
that person says the same thing too.
and it's all in a circle,
going round and round,
until it breaks down.
then you realise,
you've made the wrong choice.
and you realise,
how blind love can be.

Love is not a word, it is a compilation of many promises and sacrifices.
That is why one shouldn't take love so lightly.

"Love Blind"

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

the promise of a lifetime.

firstly, i'm dying from pw.
don't wanna talk about that because it makes me sick inside and outside.

secondly, the person who tagged as heidi-hater is such a loser.
haha, let's just call the person IT.
1) IT has no guts to put its own name on my tagboard.
2) IT doesn't even have guts to put it on heidi's tagboard and has to put it on mine instead.
3) IT has no balls.
4) IT thinks IT is very big.
5) IT doesn't even DARE to come FACE to FACE and say that in front of me or heidi.
6) IT has no balls.
7) IT has no guts.
8) IT has no balls.
9) IT is a girl, because of the lack of balls.
so, what i listed is what i can conclude from a simple tag, GP rocks.

okay, so much for IT.

YAY PRAWNING THIS WEEKEND
i seriously can't wait to hold a fishing rod!!!!

i've been listening to lots of jap music nowadays and watching anime.
EYESHIELD 21!!!
super old, but super cool anime.


"and just like that, you drifted off my line"

Monday, October 13, 2008

D-Day

yes, i haven't blogged for a long long time.
because i'm either too busy playing or doing work.
and now, i only got a moment to blog before returning to reality.
PW is so tedious and screwed.

I&R and WR this week.
OP trials next week and the actual is on the 3rd.
MT A'levels on the 30th i think.

gosh, if only i had someone to show me that everything's gonna be okay.
it's like i'm showing many people how everything's fine, but it's not fine myself.

for those who are reading, i think i'll blog soon enough, if not this week then next week or the week after the next....you get the idea.

i need something to keep me awake...


"you played games that only fooled yourself, hiding from the truth you can't hold within."

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Post-Promo MUGGING

firstly, here are some photos, some kinda delayed, some on time.
I finally got my sergeant keroro figure!!!! hahahaha, so cool!!!!
okay, this is the cap i bought and my ticket for the F1.
flowers and a tote bag for my mummy on her birthday.
this just came out fresh from the horse farm, they have horse poop in pink too!
okay, dickeon's phone is balanced on 2 $2 notes and it's cool.


currently, i'm listening to Back-On's (yes, it's a jap band)
1) Blaze Line
2) Hikari Sasuhou (metal version)
3) A Day Dreaming...
4) Flower

they're so awesome and i wanna GET THEIR CD!!!

ok, i've got man vs. wild at 10, must not miss it!
and i've got to do something about sleeping because i don't seems to have enough sleep for the past week.
damn, this is JC life.
at least i'll get paid at least 3000 when i graduate from uni!!!
hahahaha.


"you're gonna break the scarecrow"

Monday, October 6, 2008

MONDAY

Loveless avenue, where the red light illuminates,
masking the blood stained streets of those hurt,
out of life,
out of love,
they seek comfort in anyone but above,
pacing from door to door,
asking for more and more,
oh what a crimson red hue,
only in loveless avenue.

"Loveness Avenue" by HX.

lol, i showed it to joel and he was like "no comment", and there i was laughing and amazed at my creativity. XD

i should be able to watch house bunny with joel tomorrow.

but the homework today is like omg.
1) Econs,
2) Chinese OMG
3) GP


i'm so tired.
i wanna sleep now.
because the weather is so cold.


AHH, PRAWNING SOON!!!!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

the 2 am post.

Somehow, i always contradict myself.
for example,
i swore never to buy sausages from the western stall, but i still do.
or i'll never buy noodles from the noodle stall, but sometimes, i still do.
now, i thought i wouldn't blog till next friday, but i can't take the un-updated-ness (there's no such word) of my blog!

i'm doing wr now, and will be stuck with it till friday.

i hope something nice happens to me, like a sudden fishing trip, or i find lots of monies on the ground.

because good surprises don't happen to me that often anymore, and life is boring again.
it's a hassle everyday to worry about my work, whether the person i love feels the same, whether i'll bump into people i hate, whether i still have the time to worry so much.
because i can't just give everything up now, not now, despite all the times thinking about it, someone once taught me not to be irresponsible and i will not.

SOMETHING GOOD, PLEASE HAPPEN QUICK BEFORE I GROW BORED.

i'm looking forward to a few things these days.
1) prawning!
2) that dinner i owe.
3) the kelong trip.
4) the malaysia trip(if i can go)
5) taiwan!
6) christmas concert.
7) all the fun things i do with my friends.
8) jamming with livert.

"that fuzzy feeling when summer comes and the jazz comes in the sun."

okay, i think i'll stop here.
getting tired, must do wr before i sleep.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

FONOGENICO

I'm currently in love with this japanese jazz duo called FONOGENICO
and so i'm promoting them on my blog.

here's two songs.
1) Reason
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxufjEoquqw
2) Rhythm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPqIIUtsH8s

watch it because it's nice.
till friday, bye. :D

HELL-IDAY

ohkay, sho here'sh whatchts gonna happen.

list of homework:
1) Econs (lotsa essays)
2) Physics Spa (skill c, d worksheet)
3) GP essay outline
4) OMG Chinese
5) PW!!!!!

I'm seriously stressed out(once again) and this time.

OMGWTF PW!
we're so behind and we need to put in so much effort by next friday(dealine for WR)

basically, here's what i'm doing for the days till next friday:
1) no blogging.
2) WR all the way.
3) very little sleep.
4) very cranky ( i hope not, but can't be helped if i'm too stressed without enough sleep.)
5) lots of ginseng, red bull, brands, coffee(i love latte).
6) very little time spent at home, except for sleep.
7) a lot of time spent outside doing work.

i'm so scared......and pissed.....and screwed unless WE do something about the WR.

so after next friday, i think i can get a breather and then continue on other stuff.

i gtg do work. till next friday, ciao.

Monday, September 29, 2008

NOSTALGIA

Will you remember, a friend forever, who has pressed on, stood the test of time and space?
I heard that if a knot is tied, it will never unravel, just frozen in time and space.
Friends are never lost, just kept in a distant part of your memory where the forgotten resides.
Friends always reflect yourself, and will be there for you if you happen to be beside.

Through the lights on the streets at night,
through the darkness that resides in the sky,
i bring you nostalgia for all that we've been through,
when we could see one another's souls and not the mask of skin.

Drums beat just like how the rhythm of friends go,
up and down at odd times, but always keeping the rhythm it's supposed to go.
You just need to listen for the distant sounds of beats,
to know where your memories go.

THE END

it's 12++ and i've just done my WR.
need to compile it.
school's tomorrow, not really looking forward to it, but ugh, no choice.

congrats to Alonso.
disappointed about Ferrari.


"i looked back at an email when you were overseas, oh how weird it must have sounded now."


Sunday, September 28, 2008































haha, the timeline for the pics is bottom up.
I really need to thank Limter for inviting me to F1 and sharing lots of laughter with me,
Fiona for laughing at my jokes and being my best friend,
and Guataman for joking and fooling around with me.
It was a great day, and i'm so looking forward to the finals.

GO KIMI RAIKKONEN!!! GO FERRARI!!! GO MASSA!!!!

this is a picture post, so enjoy! :D

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

"Curses" - BFMV

We've waited far to long to, watch it all crash and fall through,
So when you feel like shit you've gotta keep on pushin,
If you saw the world through my eyes, then you wouldn't feel so high rise,
Its time to take a chance you've gotta sit back and hold tight.

Theres forces working in our heads but we don't understand them,
I need a map to find my way out all the time,
Theres curses lurking in our heads but we don't want to find it,
We need to come back down and face what we've become.

We've become!!!

The more I think the more I wish I'd pushed stop then hit rewind,
What I would give to have a day back then when no one really cares,
I remember when we all used to kick back,and take days off school,
So many times I've smiled many times I cried but never did we try,

Never did we try, because...

Theres forces working in our heads but we don't understand them,
I need a map to find my,way out all the time,
Theres curses lurking in our heads but we don't want to find it,
We need to come back down and face what we've become.

Its haunting me! Im so alone,
Im just trying to find my way back home,
Im so alone, alone.

Theres forces working in our heads but we don't understand them,
I need a map to find my way out all the time,
Theres curses lurking in our heads but we don't want to find it,
We need to come back down and face what we've become.


now, find your way out of this, like how you left me dying 3 months ago without air to breathe.
you brought this on yourself, you deserved this.
and now i tell you too, that i have a future ahead, one without you.
goodbye.

I have a future without you to pursue.

OH MY GOODNESS, I MET THE PROMOTIONAL CRITERIA.
and safe to say, i'm going to J2.
now, i'll have 2 years of JC!!!! hahaha

ok, so now i have PW to do.
need to churn out the 3rd draft by tonight,
and correct it as soon as it gets vetted.

F1 this Saturday!!!!!
lol, can't wait to see fiona and lim, and the F1 cars, and Raikkonen, Massa, Hamilton, Truli, Alonso, Montoya.........
Heidi, i'll post the pictures i take at the F1 event, especially for you.
(you should realy consider the smiley face thing.)

hokay, i'm jamming with livert, maybe ethel and some other people soon enough.
and i'm playing badminton with faizal on friday, probably ask tim to come along, and joel too.

okokokokok, lalalalalalaa, i need to do a damn good job on PW.
ciao.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

F.E.A.R

Fear has conquered us all,
squeezed our little balls,
to spit out lies for whom we love,
deceiving all the white doves.

Fear has blinded us all,
it has made it your call,
much to our ear's comfort,
much to your mind's comfort.

Fear has made me aware,
made me resist the likes of you,
made me stronger to hold love true,
made me care.

This fear shall not hold me back,
for i conquered fear in making it mine,
for i feared that fear would kill love,
for i feared that fear would make me just like you.

Hence, in fear that i may hurt the one i love, i won't tell lies, only the truth, for
love conquered f.e.a.r(failing every aspect repeatedly)






Sunday, September 21, 2008

THE AFTERMATH

i was just thinking.
when you're apologising to someone, you expect to be forgiven.
but when you've screwed something up so bad, and don't wanna be forgiven, you don't apologise.
give it some thought, because i think this is really true.

anyway, it's 12 and i have school tomorrow.
i got off the phone with joel at 11 plus.
and now my tuition teacher is messaging me, asking when i can go for tuition.
so i might as well blog a bit about today.

in the morning, i went to meet up with shi yi and jasline about pw stuff.
then we were like "okay, nothing else? lets go!"
haha, so i met up with joel, cheryl, brandon and shermaine at Kembangan at 1:20pm and 1:45pm.
and we took a train to orchard, went to borders, orange julius and took a shuttle bus to Dempsey Road, where they were having a flea market.

so basically, we took loads of pics and i got my mum's b'day present there, which by the way is first hand.
after that, we took a cab to holland V where there is in fact a redundant windmill on top of the building. went to cold rock ice creamery(is that right?) to grab some desert and snapshots before making our way home.
i had this cafe and grill for dinner to celebrate my mum's b'day.
and blah blah blah, joel will post the pictures with a picture post.

i hope school's fun tomorrow.


i would like to thank my friends for being here for me when i need you guys the most.
and when it's your turn to feel down, i'll be there for you too.
just like what real friends do. (it rhymes)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

BAD BAD MOOD

I'm bloody pissed right now.
i HATE(to the point where i wanna tear their faces open) people who bloody lie about stuff.
i seriously despise, look down, spit on those who do such things.
what the heck happened to good old honesty and trust.

warning, the blank space below contains some vulgar stuff that you can read if you bold it, so those who do not want to see it, DON'T BOLD IT.


You f**king losers, always trying to hide what wrongs you've done by blaming it on something else or simply hiding it. I seriously hate you people, you all simply DO NOT deserve any respect from me or anyone, you're so low, so f**king low, you're so low, i can only refer to you as IT. You're comparable to some fucking low-life uncivilised organism.
You hid it from me, until it was too late to do anything about it, no wonder "true" friends are those who are as f**king low as you.
You're so proud of yourself, thinking you've done the people around you proud when you've just crippled yourself inside out, you've made a whole new person for yourself, thriving on cheating people of their emotions and hiding the fucking truths behind everyone who has given you their trust. Someday, all the things you've done and ignored is going to come back to you, and when you get your just deserts, it's gonna hurt so bad, you'd wish you were dead.
me? i'll be learning from what you've f**king done. i learn never to trust anyone with the likes of you, no matter how honest and respectful they seem. i learn never to lie to people who are close, and when i mean close, i mean respectful and close. F**k you, i wonder what'll happen if she knew, i'm feeling so bad for her already, and even WE pity her for how you're treating her behind her back. I'd hope she doesn't find out, then she can carry on living a happy life of lies.
No wonder you said all those things, it's because you wanna try and "stop" this shit before we found out, and when it's long gone, it wouldn't hurt anyone of us. WOW, how f**king thoughtful of you you F**KING LIAR. Guess what? I've never ever felt like this, i hope you like what you've done, because there's no turning back the way i see it.



PS: anyone who comes up to me and asks me anything about it, I WON'T TALK, so you might as well save your breath.

PSS: i'm feeling ill and bored.

you cheated right from the start.

morning.
a bit hoarse from yesterday night's karaoke session with family.
haha, too many songs to list them out here.
lol, first thing i did was to search for hand of blood, and guess what?! THEY DON'T HAVE IT.
no surprise there.

i'm feeling like shit right now, really feel like strangling someone.

currently, i'm listening to "Home" by Michael Buble.
i think i'll probably try to tab it out because it's not available on the net.

today, no plans to go out yet, just planning to slack and do PW.
maybe i'll go and sleep.

ugh, bloody cold.
ok, morning's not really the time to blog.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

GUM IS PERFECTION

Now at mac-cafe, doing PW.
can my post-promos get anymore boring?
why yes it can.
i can just rot at home on top of the toilet bowl wondering why in the world i'm there when i'm not even taking a dump.

school shmool.
it was kinda boring, not worth blogging about.
but i went to joel's place to watch FRIENDS with brandon.

i am now officially kissed by the sun.
skin's peeling like skin peeling.

i think i'll go to school tomorrow.

mc-cafe's pretty empty, maybe because everyone's having their promos.
btw, good luck to those having their promos now.

anyone wants to know something?
i'm = = = = = , = = = =.
as if anyone wants to know that.

HEY I KNOW.
when YOU read this, just drop me a random message about something, like what you wanna do or something like that.
don't know why, but it sounds kinda cool.

OMG FOB's new album is coming out and i'm pre-ordering it!!!!!

27th is the date i'm going to watch F1, so please don't ask me out for anything important than this, unless of course, it IS more important than F1.

back to post-promos work.

Monday, September 15, 2008

*scream

"Dying In Your Arms" by Trivium.
"10 years ago" by BFMV.
"Hand of Blood" by BFMV.
"Hearts Burst Into Fire" by BFMV.

these songs are currently my favourite,
please listen to them if you aspire to become me. lol. now no one wants to listen to them.
haha, but it's seriously nice. metal, but not too much screaming.


today today today wth today.
seriously, i went fishing on my own and my uncle accompanied me through the afternoon.
kinda unproductive coz it was raining heavily in the morning and very sunny in the afternoon.
so here's some pics.


me with my newest polaroid sunglasses.

the tree and sky above me while i was fishing(that's how boring it gets)

i just thought the clouds were nice.

well, i didn't take any picsof the fishes i caught coz they're fugly(yes, fish are ugly too, just like people who are ugly.)


so tomorrow i'm gonna do stuff.


oh yea, i repaired my guitar recently, so i'm blasting in my room nowadays when i have nothing to do.


ok, i will go eat my dinner now. NOW.

"and now i see it's you that's tearing me."

Sunday, September 14, 2008

memories, such a waste.

well, since i'm blogging, it means my promos are over.
so far so good, i done my best.
good luck to Timothy, Fiona, Limter and Heidi for their promos which are coming soon.
we'll all soon meet up again.

recently, it's been the "do what you want because promos are over" days, and so i've been going out often.
haha, it makes good memories, and i'll keep them.

i just watched the bucket list and cried, a little.
life isn't that long, and we should cherish all the memories we have.
never forget who you were and dare to face those whom you've let down.

i've been listening to a lot of metal recently, and i find it not bad. haha, still learning to play it though.

well, i'll be doing stuff over these few days, away from the computer, so i guess it's till next time world.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Last Post before Promos.

It's been raining cats, dogs and cartoon frogs.
why can't it just rain single-celled organisms like amoebas?
how i wish margeret was here to help me find my box of pirate memory games for children ages 4-8.


lol, too much lil britan.


anyway, it's around 9:30 and i am not at mccafe.
because my ipod ran out of battery.


i'm mugging for 3 more days. and there's 5 days of exams.
THEN I'LL GO FISHING OMGWTF.

i hope JUNDE remembers to bring his fishing rod on the last paper.
coz i'm bringing mine.


omg.
someday, i need to purge all the caffeine out of my body.
i've been gulping cups and cups of coffee for the past month.
ugh.
coffee.
ugh.
caffeine.
why does it rhyme???


I NEED TO GET PROMOTED.
I WANT TO GET PROMOTED.
I MUST GET PROMOTED.
I WILL GET PROMOTED.
I HAVE TO GET PROMOTED.
and that's what coffee does to me.
IT HELPS ME GET PROMOTED. XD


it's 9:45 now.
i think i'll sleep.

wish me luck for all the upcoming events of my life.


for one more day, i'll do anything to earn it.


PS: i need a hug, and someone to tell me that my life's gonna be wonderful.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

GET A MOVE ON IT.

i wanna shove some pain up love's rear end.
because love is constipating, especially after it died on you.
i need to save myself and just get it all out one day.
i need to find someone who feels the same.


at least i'm still the same.


it's 9:55.
and i'm at home because i feel sick, physically and mentally.



i just got one new Havaianas slipper.
yes, ONE.
because my brother dropped one of his into the storm drain, while walking home in the rain.
so he gave his other one to me.
XD


guess what, i'm being forced by someone to do work till 10:30.
lucky me. :D


PS: my class has this tendency to make scandals out of everything. cheap thrill. seriously.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Never relive it, just know it's there.

9:26pm.
it's been an hour since i woke up from a sleepless night.(because i wore uncomfortable pants and it was damn hot but i was too lazy to do anything about it.)
today is tuesday.
what am i gonna do today?
oh right,
STUDY
till my lungs drop,
hair falls,
eyes twitch(been twitching for the past 5 days),
taste fail,
stomach ache
and promos end.


PLEASE GET ME PROMOTED!!!!


well, the past caught up with me recently.
and i must say, that it's hard to relive the past.
so looking ahead is still my best and favourite option.


and recently, someone's been nice to me, asking me out for dinner.
haha, i really thank that person for it.
and i'm looking forward to more. XD


bro's and dad's birthdays just passed.
bro got scary boring game.
scared and bored the shit out of me.
felt good. :)


so it's back to studying for me.
ciao.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

shed some light for me,
you have shown me what i can be,
play my favourite melody,
smile everyday for me.

first impressions are always deceiving,
because my other 99 told another story,
that i actually felt warmth for you,
no matter what lullabies you sang.

isn't it obvious,
how far one can go,
before showing true intentions of a secret spell,
before filling up the well.

time will tell us when to fall,
time will be our match-maker,
time will give us strength to open the cover,
pry open the treasure underneath.

your sweet passion,
my newfound passion to live,
for you,
for me.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

1 week to prove myself, 1 week to make this happen.

1 week to the TPJC Promotional Examinations.

i know i haven't blogged for a while, because i simply don't have the time and i've been doing almost the same thing everyday.

weekdays: wake up, school, study at mccafe or at shermaine's study room, sleep. same thing happens again.

weekends: wake up, study at mccafe, sleep. same thing happens again.

now i'm at mccafe, blogging.
stomach-ache.
waiting for timothy to come down from whitesands.
had dinner with shermaine just now.
saw dominic with his friend at the foodcourt where we ate at.
he got chased out from macdonalds coz they don't allow muggers during weekends.
good thing mccafe doesn't do that for muggers.

yesterday was a blast, it's one of those good days i'll have before the exams.
really motivated to do well days.

so yesterday....
woke up, went to school.
skipped aces day because i was performing.
waited till 9 plus,
then performed.
it was so comical, i was playing well, and everyone was laughing at the kenneth, arif and samuel.
so after teachers day, i rushed back home to bathe and went to PRSS.
haha, met tim at the mrt, and joshua, fiona and heidi in school.
gave presents to mdm mariam and mr tan.
and talked around.
then went to city with josh, fiona and heidi.
heidi had to meet her sponsor, so fiona, josh and i went to my mum's office first, where i got some monies(heidi's way saying money) and went to eat lunch.
met limter then went to suntec.
comex.
people.
computer.
crowd.
then went to starbucks where josh had to go home.
then went to comex again.
haha, then we met heidi and went for dinner at pasta mania.
then went home after walking around.

we caught up with one another's lives, like what real friends would do.
sure we had our highs and lows, but we laugh at it, like what real friends would do.
it's been so long since we met, and it'll be a while before we meet again.
till promos end, see you guys and gals soon.

study hard. ugh.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

RED-DEVILBRINGER

FRIDAY:
finished GP and chinese tests, then went to joel's place with jun de, shermaine, cheryl and brandon.
had dinner at siglap, pity the crab restaurant moved to woodlands.
then did stupid stuff. XD

SATURDAY:
woke up, played ps2, ps3, went for tuition, then studied with shermaine till 12am.
haha, learnt something new as well.
btw, integration is irritating at times.

SUNDAY:
went to the cemetry to pray for my grandfather.
then went to turf city with my whole family and bought stuff.
was supposed to meet my cousin, but he didn't show up, which was kinda irritating.
and i'm at home now, hoping that S'pore wins the table tennis match or else i have 10 bucks less for next week.


alright, i'm gonna memorise "vincent" by don mclean by tonight so that i have a sense of accomplishment over the weekend.


somehow, i'm afraid and low on self-esteem because of the promos.
with all my friends so stressed and nervous, how can i stay still and say everything's gonna be alright.

i seriously wish all my classmates get promoted, because if they didn't, i'll feel upset.
well, almost all my classmates with the exception of a few. XD

btw, i bought a belt a few weeks ago.
it can withstand being stretched by a 400pound weight.

to guitar!!!




Wednesday, August 13, 2008

"i confess, i messed up, drop dead i'm sorry like you're still around."
after what has happened, i don't have the heart to love you like i used to.
"drink down that gin and kerosene."
no matter how much i think of you or yearn for you at times, i'm just afraid of you.
"i don't blame you, for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it."
i thought you'd still keep a part of me in your heart, but you told me you didn't.
"coz sugar we're going down swingin."
i gave you everything that belonged to us after you said that, and hoped you do remember.
"i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake."
we lost 4 years of friendship just like that, in the blink of an eye.
"we're trapped and well concealed, in secret places, we don't fight fair."
because of you, i hated this thing called love. i hate who you are now, so flirtatious and shallow.
"he tastes like you, only sweeter."
i told you it's hard for me, to move on. I'm proud to say now that i've moved on.
"I found the cure to growing older."
and never will i be so careless and giving again, never will i be stepped on and used as backup.
"i chimed in, haven't you people ever heard of, closing the god-damn door no."
i have friends, good ones whom i treasure for the rest of my life.
"i keep telling myself, i keep telling myself, i'm not the desperate kind."
just like one told me, you treat yours like tissue paper, use it and throw it.
"i'll be stuck fixated on one star."
my love turned evol and i hope you have a sad life, you miserable fool.
now, which phrase wasn't sung by fall out boy? answer and i'll bow down to you and admit that you're a fan as big as me.

Break broken hearts into farts.

"coz that's just who i am this week"

Fall Out Boy.
Just finished "live in Pheonix" including the bonus material.
speechless.
****live!!!!

lol

went out to study last night at someone's place.
then borrowed the tv at 10 to watch man vs wild.
the second season stinks, i mean he didn't even show you how you get out of the desert.

"slept through the weekend, and dreaming of sinking with the melody of the cliffs of eternity."

i got chinese homework(yes, it's an endledd supply" and econs to do.
and i feel damn tired coz i slept at 1 last night playing milack(my mirror-black guitar)

i got a cut from pe today, after the bloody board slipped out of my hand.

"sometimes i just want to know what it's like to be you"
"i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive"

omg, please let thursday end sooner than i can blink.

ps: tennis was fun today, so was going home.

Monday, August 11, 2008



this was after the june holidays at the pasir ris fishing pond.
this picture captures the essence of fishing, that one must not give up without a fight.

and i got this baby after the fight.





it's a milk-fish, probably a relative to the bone-fish, because it's so bony.
anyway, the blood on it's head was caused by itself, hitting the ground after it came up.


"embrace the fight for the sense of accomplishment."

live.love.live

love is in the air again.
make my way outta crazy hearts.
find myself way more smart.
in this thing called love
in this thing called looooove.




3 weeks and 4 days left to the EOY promos.
when i do get promoted, i'll reward myself with say...a new guitar?

so i got FOB's live in phoenix dvd, and it's so cool if you blast it out loud and sing along!
"i confess, i messed up, drop dead i'm sorry like you're still aroooouuunnnddd...."

chem test tomorrow, along with econs to do up.
it's gonna be one busy night.



old toys, old clothes, old things you wouldn't touch.
old look, old friends, old things you wouldn't touch.
forget the old, embrace the new, that's who you really are.
when new gets old, new grows old, old things you wouldn't touch, that's who you really are.



tonight's gonna be real busy.
goodnight!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

6th of August in the Autumn

SIGH
big relief.
it's been one hell of a week in school, and i'm happy to say that i survived.

i'm looking for a pianist for next year's song fest.
requirements: must be a student in tpjc.

i have slightly less than a year to practice some of the craziest songs, but that's no big deal compared to the guitar ensemble's pieces.

alright, it's early rest for me.
bye.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

the sunday post.

why? i don't know why.
why can't i keep you out of my head?
why can't i stop seeing you?
why can't you just get lost?
why do you appear when i don't want to see you?
why are you everywhere?
is it because i'm nuts?
or because it's retribution for what i've done?
is it because i'm dying and that's why i see things i don't want to?
or because we've been through so much, too much.

i hate you.

go away.

i hate crying when i think of you.

i hate dreaming of you.

i hate going to the places we've been.

i hate seeing you in my head.

i don't need you.

just get lost.

far away.

just go.

you never apologised.

you changed.

now you're someone else.

stranger to my heart.

poison to my soul.

i tried all i could.

i never want to try.

just go.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

The Saturday Post

Listen to "Just" by Radiohead, it's cool.

yesterday was one of the best fridays i've had.
lol, brandon and i went to play pool after school and we broke even, because the last round was equal to winning 4 rounds.
i was unlucky and damn lucky.
then joel, cheryl and their pre-u sem friends went to ehub as well for a movie.
so brandon and i seriously joked till we couldn't stop laughing.
before they reached, joel called me.
then i told brandon to ans it.
joel: hello?
brandon: yo dude!
joel:so where are you now?
brandon: .pause. eh, hong xiang was at the foodcourt, then he bought chicken chop or fish and chips. then he dropped the knife on his foot.

lol, i was laughing like shit.

then after a while, brandon passed the phone to me.

me: hello?
joel: can i speak to hongxiang?
me: yea, i know it's you la. eh, i cut my foot la, it's bleeding now, quite badly.
joel: HUH? Serious arh? (talks to cheryl in the background) eh, he cut his foot leh.
me: yea, i needa go home and dress my wound now, cya later dude.

LOL
then brandon gave me a plaster and i put ketchup under it to make it look like it was bleeding.
ha, i didn't cut my foot.
and joel and cheryl found out about the joke.

then i went to watch the mummy till 2 with mum and bros.

i seriously don't know what to do today.....
maybe i'll go study or something...

Thursday, July 31, 2008

title Y

pool.
that's what we were supposed to do at safra if there was any space.
instead, we went to the cafe downstairs.
and played the number game.
so it was like hamzah, dedrick, brandon and me.
first forfeit was to do jumping-jacks in front of the waitress and her boyfriend. LOL
it was me, brandon and dedrick.
second forfeit was the ultimate i say.
it's a double forfeit, the first is to run around the lobby sounding like an aeroplane, and the second was to message to three girls saying "i love you."
lol, i won, so you get the whole story.
XD

this week was nuts.
no time to relax till tomorrow.
haha, still have loads to do, so.....
till next time!

"and i said that you could look into my eyes if you want to forget the troubles."

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

title X

seriously, i'm gonna laugh my ass out today.
i'm so damn lucky.
however, i won't blog about what happened today, otherwise it'll be pointless.
HAHAHAHA
lol, in a sense, i was gracious in two ways today.
thenthenthen, i was laughing to myself uncontrollably all the way home today.

i guess what they was true, a chance can be given and should be given once sins are recognised and forgiven.
pity it won't happen.

oh, did i mention that YUI was the reason why i decided to play the guitar?
okay, just did.
well, i was 15 then, and i love litening to YUI back then.
so while i was reading her profile, i read that she started playing when she was 15.
so i was like "cool, i'll do the same."
so i did.
and i have never regretted since then.

someone once told me that in life, we should never regret the things we do.
but what's the use if you have done something to regret and don't accept it?
is ignorance really bliss?

"you never look out the window when you have one,
to see the world as it is today."

Monday, July 28, 2008

"The Girl Who Leaped Through Time"
seriously, one of the better animes, highly recommended by me for those who want a good feeling after the show.

so i was sick today, had a case of stress related illnesses over the past few weeks.
i stayed home, slept through the whole afternoon, doing a little work and i'm here now, blogging.

okay, the BC is having a sleepover at someone's place during them month of december.
not sure who's place, but it'll be fun.

it seriously feels like the hottest period of the year these days.
31 degree celsius this afternoon, madness!

one thing, i totally hate it when people make and spread rumors, so uncool.
(heidi you know what i mean)

maybe during december, i'll learn a few songs and perform on the streets, anyone wanna join me?

MY JC HAS THE EARLIEST PROMOS AMONG ALL THE OTHER JCS.
and i'm like wtf?

okok, some words to end the post:

when you blinked,
you did not see yourself,
you lost that once in a lifetime moment,
you lost your thoughts,
you missed the fall of a raindrop.

when you blinked,
you did what you shouldn't,
you lost a loved one,
you lost trust in yourself,
you made yourself unsure.

when you blinked right at that moment,
you lost so much time without realising you lost any at all,
and moved on as if the next blink will get you somewhere.
Open your eyes for once and see what you truly missed,
from blinking.

"blink blink"

Sunday, July 27, 2008

post no. 8

Yui - Laugh Away
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vpkHTzOo8Pg

somehow, this weekend doesn't feel like a weekend anymore.
it feels like a weekend anticipating the weekdays ahead.

Friday, July 25, 2008

post no. 7

YUI - I Loved Yesterday
RADIOHEAD - The Best Of
MEGADETH - Rust In Peace
METALLICA - Master Of Puppets
METALLICA - Ride The Lightning

5 CDs in one day to listen.
haha, i bought the first two and borrowed the rest from brandon.
lol, i had tuition today, and only reached home at 9:45pm.

I needa do wind-surfing after my promos, anyone wanna join?

today is friday, TGIF!!!!!

i held my shit for 9hrs today, hurray me.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

post no. 6

sore, that's what i feel in my legs when i walk now.
as usual, lots of work and little sleep.
i realise that i'll look forward to seeing my friends everyday when i come to school,
and they're such good friends.
(really!)


one more day to TGIF,
and two more to the weekends.
i'll study and sleep, promos coming soon.
ugh, tired.


hey, i went for a haircut, and it's real good.
i think i'll take a pic of my hair and show it to the barber for the next few haircuts.

ok, back to work.
bye!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

i'm so gonna die tomorrow.
my legs are still hurting from monday's swim and i have to run 5km tomorrow.

i hope heidi, fiona and tim can meet up again, wanna catch up with what they're doing. XD

brandon came over today to try out ROCK BAND.
here's what he had to say:
"rock band is so cool it deserves a medal as shiny as Mr Ho's head.."
(actual sentence)
haha, i hope trina and sabrina enjoys it as much tomorrow.

so.....
i just finished a game of pokemon with my bro and now i'm playing "Enter Sandman" by metallica on the guitar, and blogging as well of course.

well.....
it's been crazy recently, and all i can say is that i'm gonna get a girlfriend in uni, where people are more mature and not stupid.
you know what i mean.

basically.....
i wanna earn big bucks after i saw mr chew at whitesands today. remember him? he's PRSS social studies teacher.
haha, he gave me a good formula to earn big bucks, and i'll take the advice because it's free. XD

and.....
if sabrina, cheryl and trina can't make it tomorrow, and brandon's not coming too, and no one asks me out, and i've got nothing to do.
i'll go fishing at bedok jetty, probably ask jun de along.
so cool, i've never found someone my age who likes fishing.
it's not boring.
it's just relaxing.
if you can't relax,
you're a boring person.

now.....
i'm going back to my guitar and probably sleeping early.


goodnight world,
where the sun leaves the earth and the clouds shrinks into stars.
goodnight world,
where birds don't fly when there's no sky.
goodnight world,
still so amazing, illuminated by city lights.
goodnight world,
where the wind blows but you can't see the leaves fly.

Monday, July 21, 2008

post no. 5

smoke in the air today.
smoke in the pool too.
that's what i saw and swam in not so long ago.

recently, i saw myself and realised how much i hated me.
wow, it's like you, right in front of you, listening to how much of an ass you used to be.
good thing it's long gone for me, but i still have to tolerate it everyday.

i'm starting work at 8, ending at god knows when.
heck, i might even go to macdonalds in my uniform and study till the morning.
it's not like there's any tests, there's just so MUCH work to do.
and that's what i get for dragging.
another lesson learnt.

"the nightmares are gone,
keep me wake till dawn,
play my favourite rock songs,
to show me how to make the night long."

OMG, i need a stupid mic to plug into my amplifier, so that i can get some form of cheap thrill screaming into the mic at night while eveyone's sleeping and i've got nothing to do.
and a mic-stand.

ROCK ROCK BAND BAND on wednesday after road run anyone?

i need a holiday.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

"we're trapped and well concealed, in secret places, wooaahhh..."
"take over the breaks over" by FOB!

haha, i think i'll blog every phrase of the song that i'm listening to at the moment i create this post.

Yesterday, i went to watch THE DARK KNIGHT with cheryl and it's sooooooo goooooood!!!!
i believe that the late Heath Ledger was really really really good as the joker and deserves not just one but multiple oscars.
The Dark Knight is one of the better movies this year, and i wouldn't ask for anything more.
Haha, after the movie, i went to Sabrina's place with Cheryl to do roller blading.
lol, i fell then Cheryl saw me fall and fell as well. XD
who's the silly one now?
Had dinner at Sabrina's place, really good porridge and bee hoon!
and we talked about jokes and ghost stories till late at night.
went home and i crashe onto bed immediately.

woke up today to do class fund, spent 5 hours and balanced everything.
did eom and all the work i needed to do.
then here i am now playing songs on the electric from the FOB scores.
and i gtg play pokemon soon with my bros.
well, i'm looking forward to the cross country on wednesday coz after that, i think Sabrina and her sister can come over to play rockband! oh yea, brandon too, coz he's a fan i guess. XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIoBXdQX_wY
this song is one of the best and funniest songs i've heard recently, you'll laugh, it's damn funny! so click it and watch it, else you'd not complete your life.



ok, i gtg play pokemon now.
I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

post no. 4

"it may sound absurd, but don't be naive, even heroes have the right to bleed"
Superman by FiveForFighting.

this is the exact phrase i'm listening now from superman.
it's one of the songs that i'll never get tired of.

now, i'm doing my econs, with my resource book beside me, a laptop in front, waiting for my EOM to be done.
redbull, ginseng, music.
they're my friends that follow me around in my stomach or ears, because it keeps me so awake and focused on what i do.

haha, played a prank on joel on wednesday during physics SPA.
lol, i tapped two pieces of paper with the word "faggot" on his back.
it was there for a long long time.
and ahmad tried to tie string to people's pants which is connected to a few stools.

i had LC today, real easy.
my only regret was that i played tennis and badminton before that and got myself all wet.

nowadays, i usually go fishing during the weekends or go for movies and end up at mccafe at night doing work.
weird as it may sound, i like feeling nostalgic staring at blinking lights or feel totally relaxed looking at the waves foaming at the wind's edge with a blue sky.
have you looked at the sky nowadays? it looks amazing, or i don't really take note of it till now.
i guess i need something to keep me away from work once in a while, it does good to the soul.

well, back to work.
ciao!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

"dreams", he said, and we rose up from our seats.
just like one we've had of those long gone,
he brought us to a place of mourns.
his words reaped our souls to see,
opened our heads to be free.
we dreamt once again of faded blurs,
how we spent those times in blank thoughts.

"dreams", he whispered, and we fell to the ground.
just like on we've had of those just gone,
he shunned us from a place of mourns.
his words kept our souls in place,
closed our heads to be safe.
we never dreamt again,
never cried in our slumbers,
only heard silent winds in the distant,
coming from the cracked wall.

we woke up, stood up, moved up to the door,
only to be trapped by another closed door.

"Get Out of My Head" by me.

i'm tired, very.
by work, by school and by people.
i need to find somewhere i belong,
else i'd lose my mind, literally.
faced with nothing to do, i suffer in silence.
fishing doesn't help anymore.
splurging on food doesn't too.
the excercise craze is too mundane.
being a good student is too tiring.
something's too amiss in my life,
what? just what do i need?
i feel so empty, like something's pulled out of my body.
my soul? or is it the whole thing?
i don't know, i just don't know..

Sunday, July 13, 2008

post no. 2

He looked at the sky while you looked at the ground.

In my old blog, it was full of shit.
Full of love, hate, stupidity, nonsense and crap.
That is why i created a new world for myself, a new start with a more mature and smart me.
This blog shall contain the following types of post:
1)What i did for the day(not everyday).
2)Lists and lists of stuff.
3)Hate posts.
4)Lots of poems and nice letters.
5)Songs.
6)Reccomendations for where to go and what to do.
7)Other stuff.

so yea.
i haven't blogged for quite some time now, so if anyone misses me, here's a short update.
1)i'm still living.
2)my mid years were horrible.
3)I won't get retained at least.
4)I've been doing lots of fishing(see beautiful hobby picture)
5)Shaz and i broke up and i've been coping well.
6)School's crazy with lots of work.
7)Guitar is busy as usual.
8)I made a new blog.


well, it's 11:59, but when i post this, i think it's 12+ on the 14th of July.
i'm not sleeping just yet because i have yet to finish my homework, all thanks to hellboy on channel 5 till 9:30.
so, i'll stay up while you all sleep in your nice, comfortable beds.

i'll blog soon, cya everyone!

PS: please use the useful stuff on the sideboard, it's useful! andandand link me or inform people that i have a new blog! thank you! :)

post no. 1

littledeath has finally died, a new world is born from it.

cheers to a new start at life.