2am

I'm at subway, reading about the UK mobile network industry on a case study.
It's 2:10am and i'm tired.
Timothy just went home and now i find myself alone till day breaks.
I need a foot long sub at 3 if i wanna survive.
Tomorrow's agenda is obviously sleep.

One Republic is surprisingly good at keeping me company till now.
listened to the whole album twice without skipping a track, and i even sing along if i know the lyrics.

I have a cold. :(

that wriggly feeling inside.

i've just said my goodnights to someone whom i just knew.
it's something special, it really is.
though it's only a first impression, it's a lasting one.
sweet.

10 days left to the start of my A'levels.
just like any other student, i'd say that i do not have enough time, not enough confidence to do it.
but instead, i'd say that i have wasted time that could've been time well spent on studying, that i could've done better.
and now, i feel guilt, shame that would empower me with the gift of endurance to persevere through the night.
even if it's 1am, i'm still studying.
and i wish all my friends out there all the best.
it's only those who give a damn about what they do that they actually get it.
crude, but that's life.



perhaps, there's hope that a week's effort may be just what we've needed all the while.
don't give up, and turn hope into action.
because we're only old enough to know, but too young to care.
A is for A'levels!

Last.

I hate school now. From now until it's over.
I hate tuition. Because i have to cross half of Singapore and that wastes time.
I have low self-esteem. Because i don't know if i can do it.
I have never gotten a single A for some subjects, let alone get A in the A'levels.
I wanna stay at home from now till the A's are over.
I am not in the mood for laughter or fun because the thought of it just makes me angry, especially when it's this close to the A'levels.
I don't even blog or go online as often, this could be my last post till the A'levels are over and i come back from holiday.
I know that i have to isolate myself from the world to focus on what is important.
I don't need someone to tell me that it's going to be alright.
I don't need a shoulder to lie on.
I don't need to think.
All i need to do is study.
4 weeks and 3 days to my first paper.
4 weeks of isolation and study.
80 years to regret a decision made.
or 80 years to be content.
80 years of future in 4 weeks of effort and choices.
I better learn to like what i got myself into.

Last breath before drowning.

I only see one line among the twine.
Not the thickest.
Not the brightest.
There's a sign that it's breaking.
I might fall.
I want to break down and sit in one corner for the rest of my life.
I really do.
If I knew this was what I had to endure.
Some low-life, miserable effort.
To inspire me to work hard.
But I know it'll just come crashing down.
Like all the failures that weren't worth mentioning before.

dull away. dope.

seriously, i'm stuck on a friday night with nothing to do and without any motivation to do work or sleep.
a friday night.
nothing.
at least accoustic sessions with the band went swell, and i can't wait for the next meet.
graduation is gonna be a blast, but the songs are still pretty much secret.

i tried fishing a few days ago at the pond, seriously wasn't worth it.
no fish, and a tan while i was wearing a singlet and sunglasses.
i wanna go to the yatch club and fish there because it's more productive and the study atmosphere is great.

so far, my prelims are not looking good.
i need someone to motivate me or something because at this rate, i'd rather die.
hopefully, the mood comes naturally.

i remember how we spent hours on the phone, and sometimes when we both say nothing it means much more than it seems to.

sometimes i want the easy way out, but i know it's just an excuse for me being lazy.

F1 in Singapore, and it's september already.

someone throw me a rope so i can pull myself up.

i've been waiting for a miracle, and it might save me.

prelims are over, and they're long gone now.
so here's the main focus, A's.

caught the ugly truth yesterday, now i understand myself better.

today, having a bbq lunch with my band mates so i gtg buy the food and grill later.
shishamo woo!!!!!

yea, my band's playing for the graduation party, so that's what we got for doing a good job early in the year.

anyway, this isn't a long post but there's so many things to say.
till next post, world peace.

karma will get back at you, this i swear.

here's news.
i fractured my nose cartilage.
or rather, this ego-istic son of a mother thought it would be nice to elbow my nose in the middle of handball last thursday.
i was cursing and swearing, and when i came back from washing my bloody nose (bled from 2 nostrils), he was gone.
i went to A&E and they said it was a fracture.
then, long story cut short, i got covered by insurance and the specialist said i didn't need an operation(thank god) and it would recover in 3 weeks, so 2 weeks left to go.
i will never forget this, and i can't wait for the next pe session.

prelims has been alright so far, apart from the killer GP paper.
everyday from today is gonna be like one full maths and physics paper everyday till the prelims are over.

at least my band's gonna perform for the J2 farewell assembly.
5 people, no rock, all accoustic.
definitely need something cool.
something that'll make everyone's jaw drop for all the right reasons.

i'm beggining to love my J2 life, but it's too much of a good thing.

One to satisfy the eyes.

One week to prelims, two months to A'levels.
It's where my life pivots around, at least that's what everyone says...
but it's only another climb in life.
was never a pivot.

I've been thinking and talking about what i should do in the future, but instead of daydreaming about how i'm gonna do marine conservation in hopes of better aquatic sustainability, i've decided to just see how it goes for the moment.

Interesting things i did recently:
1) Made myself a wallet out of duct tape.
2) Bought new fishing gear.
3) Made studying fun.
4) Got a new cover for my ipod.
5) Got plenty of new clothes to wear, so i can preserve my mushroom shirt.
YOU GOTTA know Your Mushrooms.

I've caught up with heidi and tim recently, and i wanna catch up soon with fiona and lim too.
Really happy that we've had a history of ups and downs.
Anyway, teacher's day doesn't look so good, because i might not be going back to PRSS.
Sorry, maybe towards the end of the year? Then it's a surprise visit.

Anyway, prelims are around the corner, and it just seems that now, everything in life is piecing together. I'll soon find out what it is.
gotta work hard and smart.

Complex Numbers - Section (8) Loci is a bastard.

i'm giving up on loci tonight, can't figure out many qns (hence, the need for tuition).
my compass is crooked and i'm drawing ovals instead of circles.
it doesn't look loci at all when you're drawing ovals.

at least the mood is kicking in, i feel the urge to hold a pen and my work for most of the time.
at least more than the PS3 controller so yea, it's good.
first-person shooter disease, still can't get over laughing about that.

1) Econs Essay qn 3
2) Econs Essay for lecture
3) Quantun Physics tutorial
4) Maths complex 3
5) Chem Energetics.
6) Gp Essay.

and i am in the midst of many, hopefully reaching the end of it soon.

i'm starting to feel alone, but it's just a thought.

First person shooter disease.

I dug this up from Geekologie.



you either die laughing or laugh dying. it's the same.
haha, the last part was probably Ryu from street fighter.
I love the cereal, orange juice, 9mm handgun, butter knife part.

So the doc gave me a 4 day MC, but i guess i'm going back to school tomorrow. XD

Televised, not telegraphed.

i'm sick, so no school today yea.
but that means i have work, boo.
NS check-up tomorrow, gotta prepare the necessary documents.

So i've been doing lots of random stuff lately, anime mostly.
and my results really suck.
well, it's a sudden drop so i'm worried and that's good.

no incentive to blog these days.

that blood oath.

you swore!
do you remember what it was like when you did.
the sky cast in red, sun burning down that evening street.
you kneeled to your thoughts and took an oath.
an oath in your own blood to mark that promise.
yet how could you forget and betray yourself?
how the fuck did you fall so far?
when that oath you took was an oath of truth,
an oath that would not be easy because life was as it is.
now you're only four feet deep before you rise,
when that last foot really matters,
are you going to remember how that oath broke open your skin?
or is that oath lost in vain?
your oath, you decide,
you live or you die.

U to A in 4 months, it has to be done. i admit that i've been lazy, and this is what i deserve.
no time for crossing my fingers, i've got a promise to fulfill, a date with destiny.

discipline. work. win.

Rob a bank, steal a car, kill your homie, pure GTA.

FINALLY.
Exams are officially over for me, and i'm still awake now.
i haven't slept well for the past few days, have been tossing and turning in bed, waking up to look at formulas and definitions.
Econs was great.
GP was dead.
Maths was dead.
Chem was great.
Physics was okay....

haha, went to swensens with my class today, been a long time since so many of us went out together.
After the rest went to watch transformers, i left for home thinking i would sleep.
until i saw the GTA disc lying on the table.
so i played till 5.
then i was closing my room window when i saw danial, sharmaine and jasline across the road roaming aimlessly. XD
so i invited them up.
caught some TV with them and a damn good episode of the simpsons.
after dinner, i went with my parents to geylang for durian.
and i ate quite a lot.
feeling very satisfied now.

i still can't sleep, too full.
so i'm gonna stone a bit, then maybe play GTA later.

H (ealth) 1 (st) N (est at home for) 1 (week more)

Read the Today paper this morning, regarding parent's views on how they feel that extending the school holidays for one more week is pretty much useless (because they say that extension or not, we'll all have the same chances of contracting it.)

what rubbish.

142 contracted, and the numbers keep on rising.
yes, this may be less deadly than sars, but it is more contagious.
imagine, the holidays have already allowed 142 people to contract it.
what if the holidays ended? 142 ++++++++++ might contract it.
and the majority would be students.
sure, temperature taking may work.
but what if the symptoms appear only after one has entered school?
then the school would be compromised.

logical.

log on to http://www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm and vote for your choice (extended holidays)

i love being 18.

a little more time, to a lifetime of opportunity.

today, py, clarence, jay and Angelyn came to help me with the BBQ food for thursday, and basically, we just marinated the food for the whole day. XD
because we bought so much, we had to push two trolleys all the way to my front door and yes, it was tiring too.

basically, i'm still having a lil bit of intestinal infection, so hopefully it recovers soon.

as for studying, asides from tuition, i went through vectors yesterday with tim.
i really need to buck up soon, all for a purpose.

so it's only a few hours to my 18th birthday.
although many things are legal to me now, living for 18 years is a sign that i've grown all this while.
my resolutions are simple, and i'll keep it to myself. XD
but still following them is another thing.
that's why my first resolution is discipline with myself.
and the rest should flow.
i've also learnt to respect others to gain respect, but there are some people who don't deserve nuts.

all in all, i have to study.
and right now, i'm still getting psyched up.
crap.

Anit-Thursdayism

woke up at 8.
took a 50min bus ride to parkway.
felt ill already (half the mind to go home but i was at katong mall already.)
tuition from 10-12, 12:30-2:30.
took another 50min bus ride home (felt even worse)
stoned at home for 2 hours.
went to eat with dickson before maths.
6:30-9, maths (on the verge of throwing up)
reached home, broke into a fever, ate medicine, slept till 11:30.
woke up, finding that i couldn't sleep.
then here i am blogging about my horrid thursday.

i hate thursdays.

i hope i get well for jamming tomorrow.

i realise you're heaven sent.

i'm listening to the song that got me hooked onto you, and i have to say that i still love the song.
it also got me hooked onto guitar and R&B.

with pleasure, with pride, without me.

so tomorrow, it'll be a week away to my 18th.
brithday wishes:
1) To have all my friends remain friends till we grow old.
2) To get my ipod this weekend with parents.
3) To have a great day on the 17th. (think i'm skipping tuition.)
4) I wanna get an accoustic, but it's too expensive.
5) I want good grades, know where i can buy them?
6) Get puma's new foam tech shoes! they're light!
7) Go fishing at least once during this holiday.

and on the 18th of June, there's gonna be a BBQ party at my place for the guitar ensemble.
so although i wanna get shit drunk on the 17th, i'll have to see how it goes first. :(

i really hate people who think they get everything for free.
because it just proves they're worth nothing.

jamming this friday and i can't wait!
songs:
1) Otherside by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
2) Snow(hey oh) by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
3) Today by Smashing Pumpkins

i hate thurday, especially this thursday, i really really despise it.
6 hours of tuition. go figure.

a toast to all we've lived, loved and lost.

The day i joined TPGE was the day i turned my back on something important, i could've been their captain, but i chose not to after much advice from seniors to follow my own heart. Afterwhich, i told myself, that i can't afford to screw up again, TPGE is my home after school. Initially it was tough, but the workload never lightened and I took on more responsibilities as we progressed. I got the job of a Section Leader and the Publicity/Welfare Officer. Since the day i joined TPGE, i can't say that i have no regrets, all that i can say is that with something to regret, i have grown stronger. Now the time has come, and like all good things, we come to a stop. I saw many of my friends crying as they played the last song together, or just by sitting at the room to take in the last look at what we've achieved, and i can't say that i haven't shed a tear for the last song. In my head, i know we'll all see each other soon, but hardly in the guitar room.

now that it has finally ended, the relief is great.

screw up of the year.

school's fine, aside from the tons of work and revision before the exams, i can't wait for the holidays.

joined the school's badminton competition yesterday, managed to advance to the semis for doubles, but i lost in the first round of singles.
and i woke up today with a very stiff right arm.

i caught monsters vs aliens yesterday, it's really really good and i expected no less from the creators at pixar. (highly recommended)

still, i gotta say, you screwed up pretty bad.

"The End" before you even saw it coming.

I'm still in love with japanese music.
Especially those that fall under the pop/rock/metal category, it's unique.

Oh yea, i just realised that i'm a Fall Out boy and Fall Out 3 fan.
so i'm a Fall Out Fan.
haha, FOF anyone?

today was already so tiring, after sports day, guitar practice seemed to last much longer, but we made good progress.
i can't believe i have tuition tomorrow and i forgot.
i also have a physics test tomorrow.
and friday...well, there's service learning.

i just can't wait for the weekends, where it's just me, and the PS3.

i met timothy yesterday at ehub, apparently he was studying there, so i paid him a visit to talk about stuff.
the last time we met was...back when fiona and i went to surprise him at his house for his 18th birthday.
i still remember what we bought, and when fiona and i were paying for it at NTUC, it seemed so scandalous.
haha, i just can't wait where all of us can get together and do something random again.
because the past few times that we (heidi, fiona, tim, lim, sonia and i) went out, everything had a time constraint.
sleepover?
chalet?

school is taking a toll on me, but if i pull through, i know i'll feel great.
badminton competition on saturday 8 to 12, i'm playing singles AND doubles on the same day.
i hope i win something (like sport shop vouchers)

i marvel at the stars and feel the warmth overflow.

yesterday i went to the airport for dinner with my family, and i saw FIONA and SONIA.
haha, it was so coincidental because i was buying drinks back, and saw them walk past my family's table.
had a talk with them for awhile until we parted at the skytrain.
it has been a long time since we last met.

i can't believe i studied for physics till 12+ on sunday night and to find out that it has been shifted to thursday. on the bright side, i studied already. (:

i'm stuck now, with homework and chem test to study for.

YAY SOCCER TOMORROW FOR PE.
BOO EXTRA LESSONS UNTIL 4 BECAUSE I'M ALL STICKY UNLESS I BATHE IN SCHOOL.

still, i can't wait for the weekends.

white flames

college day was just weird, less than 10mins and we're off stage.

went to play pool with clarence today, it was really long since we last played.
ate at ajisen ramen afterwards, really good stuff.
then went to catch angels and demons with family, so i'm still awake now.

sometimes, i wonder if what i do really has any rewards.
i think i'm just a selfless fool, giving up what i can for others ever so willingly.
i don't even know why i'm nice to you, when all i get is shit.
at least i know people who are like me, and i know what they deserve.
they deserve better.

today(sunday)
i'm gonna stay at home and do work, and it's something i should do more often these days.
andandand practice tango and 13 days in france. :D

christmas in june.

i just had some stuff to drink, and played a bit of my ps3.
i'm tired and it's been like this every week.

ethel: yes, we should go catch a movie soon! haha, with so many good shows, it's a good movie season. :D

tomorrow is college day, and it's a saturday.

everything's dizzy now, so i'll crash soon.
it's 12:25.
and i finished my can.

movies.

Movies to catch.
1) X-men: Origins
2) Star Trek
3) Tansformers
4) Terminator: Salvation
5) Blood: The Last Vampire
6) Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince


two down...four to go.

SILVER IS GOLD

This applies to our SYF and...
my napfa test!
yay, no first few months for me!!!

i think i'm on the right track, feeling the urge to study nowadays.

i'm tried like hell,
after the napfa, we played soccer.
haha, it's like everyone just walked to get the ball.

i'm just so glad that napfa is over, this means more time to play soccer and not get bored or tired after PE.
unless of course, soccer is tiring, but never boring!

yay, barcelona qualified!!

i need my fix on something new to do, like anime, more fishing or whatever.

i'd die this way than the other....

speechless.
shocked.
can't believe my ears.
i wanna hear it again.
no wait, i don't.

i HATE, ABSOLUTELY HATE this thursday.
1) Econs test
2) Physics test
3) Napfa test


i still love you,
even though i get sore from the constant up and downs,
even though you don't really talk much,
i enjoy every moment,
that you acconpany me on rough seas,
or strong winds,
because no obstacle can stop us,
my fishing rod.

lol, i just can't wait to go fishing again. XD

why.

why did i leave the thread out,
when it has been like this since as long as i can remember.
why did i even bother looking at those old photos.
why do i still remmber what you have assumed to forget.
how did we become like this.
when all we had then were us.
when all we made were meant to last,
it sure did.

Birth of a motal.

"The day begins when the sky is clear, and the soul can see heaven's smile."

I'm doing GP compre now, really totally forgot, and this...this sense of guilt and urgency is my punishment.

I went fishing yesterday, caught small fish. :(
and i bought a large Mexican sombrero hat!

Dad came back from Bangkok today, really good to see him after all the trips he's been recently.

"The night falls when the sky is clear, and the soul can reach heaven's gates."

i miss my grandpa.
i dreamt of him the day after he passed away.
i dreamt that he was in heaven.
and he was eating lots of sweets and goodies (i'm serious. XD)
tomorrow will be exactly 6 years since he passed away.
tomorrow will be slightly more than 6 years since i've heard from him.
but i see him when i want to everyday.
peace.

i learnt in life once, when someone confessed to me.
that one should not regret in life,
that life should not be taken for granted.
it's all been heard before, but never used wisely.
i still hold true to those words that you have taught.

hook, line and fish.

i just caught x-men origins, and the movie was well worth the money.
it has been a long time since i went for a movie with my family though.

so i've been up to all the usual stuff, but with the syf over, i feel the weight lift off my shoulders.

dad came back from a fishing trip last week, and got loads of fish which could last for a few months.


if i were wolverine, i'd stab my heart and see how that compares to a heartbreak.


tuition for 4 hours tomorrow, won't be easy but i'll live.

Zantetsu-ken

if you thought the first video of the modern samurai was good, wait till you see this.
i really couldn't believe my eyes.
things he cut:
1) Candle wick.
2) Skin off the asparagus.
3) Flight off an arrow.
4) A sheet of steel.

it's worth the watch, so watch it.

meaning

i'd like to blame the world on all my problems now,
because i find little meaning in life.
consumed in all this unfairness,
pursuing empty fates with a blindfold of happiness.
if i stayed awake for all the days and nights i lived,
i'd call it a lifetime, never beginning a new day or a new year,
never marking the start of something fresh on my organiser,
because i never need to forget that life is this shit here.
call it life if you want,
but every sane moment is going to slip far away,
when it just cycles around your worst nightmares,
piercing you in the same darn spot you'd cry blood to stop.
if life could screw up twice,
shit should come back up.

it's 11:20 and i'm still here.

it's 11:20 and i'm still here.
why?
because i have work to do.
why?
because i didn't have time to do work just now.
why?
because i was busy doing SYF rehersals.
and i have practise everyday till saturday, a day's break, practise on monday and SYF on tuesday.

i hope it pays off.

i'm really tired, but these three words won't show you how i feel unless you find yourself sleepy during the morning and having that same feeling last with you till now.

OMG ECONS TEST.
OMG GP ESSAY.



just when will you fall into my arms under the light-strewn sky?

free cream of ice.

i'm sick as sick can get.
like sick...
and i still went to present at gongshan pri today with the help of my panadol flu max.
the kids were so cute.
they walked past us and would even greet us. XD
when i went on stage, they were like "good morning mr......" (cuz i haven't introduced myself)

yesterday, i studied at my friend's place.
used up a tissue box, and a few packets of tissue.

today, i went to the polyclinic after the presentation.
surprisingly, it was faster than the private clinics if i go at the right times.
so i was given three types of medicine, two which induce drowsiness.
and i won't be going sch tomorrow too.

i'll be stuck at home studying for the econs and maths timed assignments this week.

i got my ps3 back today.
still dead.
at least i got over the (game) addiction.

let the stars be our witnesses,
to our silent confessions.
let our actions justify,
just how much we could've said.
let our hugs show
how tight we wanna hold on,
because i will never let go,
because i found something more to this life of mine.

cold shmold.

i have a cold.
blocked nose, sore throat, sneezing...all that shit.
and i hate the feeling.

i'm blogging because my night is boring, and still will be until i sleep.

congrats to me because my PS3 is officially dead.
i'll have to bury it in my fishtank? or somewhere nice.
dad's getting a new one i guess, they sell it for 530 at orchard.
gonna have to recover the hard disk though.

harman/kardon speakers are still love, they complete me.

i feel like walking to the carpark to watch the sun rise tomorrow morning with coffee in my hand, haven't done it in awhile.

i wanna light up a candle tonight too,
play with fire. :D

and the only accomplishment today was you.

spill your guts in 8mm.

this is a video of the coolest modern samurai of our age.
if you thought the pen was mightier than the sword, you haven't seen the samurai sword yet!

things he cut:
1) freaking small mushroom.
2) long bean.
3) BB gun airsoft bullet.
4) an iron pipe.
5) himself. (joking)



"such holidays in the sun don't come without sacrifices"

For relief of acute diarrhoea

i've been having an upset stomach for three days now, and i lost 6kg in 3 weeks.
i seriously don't know what's wrong with me, gonna see a doc soon.

maybe it's stress?

or maybe it's after the cold milk i had...ugh...

It's all about trust.

"she drove me to daytime television" by Funeral for a Friend.

good stuff, good day.

unbelievable bullshit.

As you can see, i changed my blogskin, and i took away the tagboard.
so if you wanna leave a comment, feel free to do so below the posts.

i can't believe i'm doing my homework for wednesday when it's a monday.
i guess it's about time i did...

i'm extremely, downright, undoubtedly confused.
something's going on and i can sense it, i just can't put my finger to it.
that's the whole point isn't it?
purely a guessing game.
a very very risky game indeed.

i watched a bit of america's funniest animals, and i say it sucks to the core.
their jokes...wait, ATTEMPTS to say something funny wasn't even worth air time.
seriously, how do they survive?

and i like you for who you really are,
but when you're not you,
i feel uneasy,
i feel suffocated,
i don't feel you.

i was listening to Funeral for a Friend, and i have to say that they're great!
only their "casually dressed and deep in conversation" album though.

yet and again, i make it clear.
i make my intentions ever so true,
that this is who i really am,
not who i could be.
what for do i lie when i know that being truthful,
i feel more at ease.

sports heats are tomorrow, i hope our class makes it and i don't fall down. XD

a hug never seemed so awkward.
i burned the signal fire to show,
none other than you,
where the path was along the yellow brick road,
where the tin man's heart bled from.


all this because it'd hurt if i lost a friend like you,
where no one could replace you.

Identity - where do i belong?

Dear Dear,
Was i too sweet, too quick in conversations? Or have i shown you all i can be?
Because time waits for all man,
but opportunities for us may not.
Though my intentions are clear,
i am new to action,
arising to deception.
I know for one that if i persevere,
my intention will reach your perception,
to show my dedication for you,
and commit me to your memory.
So will i be your decision?
Or just another fading illusion?
Love,
Love.

PS: i love you more than my 80GB PS3, i love you like....a 160GB PS3....

sometimes, we hit hard times, but that doesn't mean it ends. it's the beggining of something new.




i love my harman/kardon speakers.


get well soon. :)

whatever.

PS3 died.

it's been a good long year plus? since i had it. it came as a baby. it came as a gift from the heavens above. until it stopped working all of a sudden just when i loaded GTA4.



i'll miss you, until i get a new one.



somehow, i feel so bored tonight, like extremely bored, and with nothing much on tv and nothing to do, i've declared today to be the most un-good friday ever.

"because good guys die first."

stories that were never meant to be.

i just finished all 25 episodes of Darker than Black today, really really good stuff.

i feel extremely tired these few days, must've been the lack of sleep and the boredom of routines.

jamming this weekend i hope, gonna play songs by anberlin.
somehow, it's tough these days to find the inspiration to do work.
syf on the 28th, gonna chiong after that.

are there no shadows where you are ?
i can see everything as day
problems that you try to hide away
pushing me aside
[[ you`re pushing me aside ]]

could the winter calm come twice ?
`cause your heart seems so cold tonight ?
thirst for substance somehow isn`t right
it`s killing me inside
[[ it's killing you inside ]]
you're killing me inside

i don`t wanna be where you are
i don`t wanna be here even now
i don`t wanna be by your side
if something isn`t right
if something isn`t right

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
words have no meaning
when i`ve seen where you`ve been

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
this is our last goodbye
this is where love ends

are you so naive to right and wrong ?
how could you watch innocence forgone ?
does what we`ve done ever really belong ?
it wasted me away
[[ I feel so wasted away ]]

god if you can hear me out alright
please take these feelings for her inside
my chest hurts when i breathe tonight
it`s wasting me away
[[ you`re wasting me away ]]
they`re wasting me away

i don`t wanna be where you are
i don`t wanna be here even now
i don`t wanna be by your side
something isn`t right
something isn`t right

this is our last
[[ this is my last ]]

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
words have no meaning
when i`ve seen where you`ve been

this our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
this is our last goodbye
this is where love ends
[[ this is my last ]]

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
words have no meaning
when i`ve seen where you've been
[[ this is our last ]]

this is our last goodnight
say what you will
say all that you can
this is our last goodbye
this is where love ends

"Amsterdam" - Anberlin
after hearing this song, memories come flooding back and i don't wanna picture another situation like this. ironically, it's my favourite song now.

green shadows under the old oak tree.

passed physics and chem so far.

and the day ended with me eating duck rice and not getting my hair cut. :(

flu.

sick.

why

am

i

typing

word

by

word

it's

so

irritating.



i miss the feeling of something nice and warm inside.
i think it's food.

the ashes in me.

it has been a week of exams and since it's over, i should be focusing on the bigger prize now.

i went camping last night with my family, because of Earth Day.
lol, when my cousin came to visit, she told me she accidentally switched off her fish tank pump to save electricity. XD

laying back on my hammock,
with a beer in my hand,
i stared up towards the constellations,
to see my stars reflect onto the sand.
glimpses of light,
glimpses of night,
poured into the shifting tides.
i drank a bit to life,
as my mind resides
under the star strewn night.

it's nice how its like that every night when i go camping.
wish i could have taken a photo of the night scenery.

hands down, pants out and salute to naudo for such a relaxed and cool way of playing.


sometimes, it's tough to cope, and before sadness should befall, friends are always right behind you.
don't falter, don't fret.
just (:

Haven't watch TV in a freaking week.

I'ts been a week since i watched TV, and for blogging, it has been a long while.
The past week was full of madness and joy, mugging and returning home by 10-11.
It has also been more than a week since i ate dinner at home with my family, i miss them, and they miss me too.

Clarence, PY, Yee En, it has been damn fun hanging out with you all, talking, joking, poking fun at each other's mess.
I wouldn't want it any other way.

Tomorrow, i am going to die.
Because i have yet to finish Chem, and i think i'll probably stay up till 12 to finish.
Can't wait for more marathons on friday, going out, chilling out and just being ourselves.

I'm getting used to that sleep deprivation feeling, because i have so much to do, and so little time to spare.

Life's better at this pace.

with guitar strings on top.

YAY.
i'm still so happy we got what we wanted. XD
so much hardwork, has shown its fruits!


haha, i'm standing right in the middle for this one, was lazy to go behind. XD




i still can't believe that i put eyeliner for this one.
haha, it was before the concert, we were all a bit crazy and yea...ended up with that emo look.
haha, this is yee en, my emo-shit buddy, we always feel like shitting at the same time and that day we also put eyeliner.

LOL.

thanks again pei ying for the fantastic photos, didn't know what to do without you and your SLR.

well, i bought 4 games within 2 weeks.
1) Little Big Planet
2) Resident Evil 5
3) Street Fighter 4
4) Tom Clancy: Hawx

i know the sleepover will be great tomorrow. :D

champagne for my real friends.

i'm trying to type real quietly, just finished watching push and there are two people waiting in my house for the first bus home.

competition was a success.
2nd, AGAIN for 3 consecutive years now. XD

these few days have been the better days of my life, wouldn't want it to go away.

i better find something to do before i wake them up.

milo comes from somewhere.....

prom.
these four letters have torn classes apart, and shown the true colours of many.
hence, i choose not to go.
i'd rather pay 65 bucks and go for a chalet with my guitar friends.
clarence is quite right, it's pretty senseless to pay so much just for one night of ballroom fun with half of the guys and girls seated nipping away at the cakes and deserts.
in the end, it's all materialistic.

yay, possible sleepover next monday at my place, with the guitar exco again. XD
it's gonna be so much fun!

tomorrow is a big day, and i just hope that by being lenient, it has paid off.
concert till late at night, will probably go out to do something (movie?pool?)

it's gonna be crazy.

I'm here to fill in the blanks.

Had a sleepover at YeeEn's house last weekend, damn funny.
then we all slept at 4 plus, woke up at 5 plus, went for guitar and it was damn tiring.

I haven't blogged for sometime now, it's like i'm deleting draft after draft.

10 march today, TRJA is gonna perform at downtown east tonight, so yea, probably won't be able to sleep.

Recently, many things have been going on, and it's too much to sum it up in a phrase.

ok, this is gonna be short.

ASIAN KUNG FU GENERATION

J-Rock YEAH.
haha, i really wanna do a J-rock song that's so kickass, it doesn't matter if you understand it or not.
I already have a list!
but we'll see how it goes.
at least one J-rock song in my life.

school's tiring, because i'm tired.
after all those late mornings, an early one really sucks.

"PEACE ON EARTH" organised by Terence Music corner
-A Collaborative Guitar Concert.

13March2009
7:30pm
The Republic Cultural Centre Theatre,
Republic Poly.

Free seating, 10bucks per ticket.

did i mention? the concert is right after our guitar competition.

I GOT 4 TICKETS TO SELL!!!!!

peace out

over and over again (i wanna do it again)

I met fiona at 6 plus, then we went to Eastpoint to get Tim's b'day stuff.
stuff we bought.
1) carrots
2) a bottle of wine
3) a cake
4) a pack of stuff.

haha, so we surprised tim at his house.
his house is as messy as ever, and it was an eye opener for fiona.
lol!
so we went to the new foodcourt at Simei mrt.
when we got back, we drank some red wine, and played LEFT 4 DEAD.
hahahaha, so after the cake was cut and stuff......

fiona: hey, how do you spell (left 4 dead) ?
tim and i : oh....urm....l..a..u..g..h..e..d..4 dead.
fiona: types it into the phone and sends the message to Lim
tim and i : (ends up laughing like shit and getting pinched by fiona.)

haha, it was seriously another brown-cow-white-cow-milk-or-meat joke! XD
lol, sorry fiona, it was just too funny.

so around 10, fiona had to go back otherwise she wouldn't reach the west in time.
i took a bus back.

got home, told heidi about the laughed 4 dead and slept.

The new form of fire-fighting, my drippy nose.

my nose is constantly dripping.
it's more or less confirmed that i'm not going to school tomorrow, but heck, i'm gonna finish studying for econs tonight.

SADED :(

yes, yes you are, undoubtedly.

seems like everyone is pissed at something this week.
i mean everyone.
haha, i hate this week.
i'm supposed to study for econs now (more like prepare the answers), but i can't ditch my readers yo.

okay, i'm contemplating whether to go school tomorrow, because i have a flu.
a really bad flu.
so far, i used up one tissue box.
but if i skip the econs test tomorrow, i'll have to drag it all the way to another day. :(

i'm listening to Postbox now, thanks to Ethel for the introduction.
they're not bad, and really don't sound local but they're good.
haha, if postbox was sponsored by toastbox, it would be so weird. (just a thought)

it's so warm tonight, but i'm still sneezing!

i know that things are going to look better soon, because i have friends. (:

omg, econs ugh...

make love in the pouring rain.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA SALIM.
Now in life, you're able to smoke, drink and drive.
i don't think i'll smoke, so you can just buy alcohol and drive me around. XD
JOKING!
hahaha, four years of friendship ain't a joke, it's damn hilarious because of all the fun we had.
It's interesting what we've all been through to be who we still are today, if not better.
On this age of 18, i wish you a fruitful and happy life ahead, and i wish that the BC will last through a lifetime. :)
SURPRISE x 5 = a surprised fiona.

I'm still hyped over the success of soul night, and i'm happy that many people came up to me and said that we've done a good job.

Today, i wrote a women's rights essay for the GP timed assignment, really awkward because i have not written anything about gender equality issues for quite awhile now.

Tomorrow's gonna be good, maths tuition at night till 9:30.

Tomorrow's gonna be good, killer PE lessons by TPJC's ex-commando.

I want another this week please.

This week has been a great week because i don't want it to end.
soul night, NUS chancellor challenge shield, fiona's birthday...
it's all so relaxing yet it reminds me of the weeks and tests to come.
less than 2 weeks to my exams and i have yet to start revising....
i will start tomorrow, because i can't picture myself attaining entry to NUS business school yet. :(
i really wanna go there....very badly.

yesterday, we managed to surprise fiona 4 times, really funny.
after the cake, tim had chocolate all over his pants, looked like he shit himself.
had dinner nearby at some taiwanese eatery, love the beef noodles there. :D
watched get smart when we went back to fiona's place, and everyone ate whip cream.
was about 12 when i got home, really tired.

today wasn't so bad either, had tuition and lots of free time.
until i found out there's econs homework.

sad.

now i need to do econs.

very sad indeed.

whatever doesn't kill you, isn't a very good weapon to begin with.

where do i start....okay, it's 11pm. i am HUNGRY because i ate a bit just now in the canteen.

SOUL NIGHT was so awesome, i wished the moment could've lasted.
All the weeks of hard work, and spending a fortune at the studios really paid off.
Our band is Resonance, and here's the crew:
Livert - Drummer
John - Lead guitarist
Nicholas - Bassist
Clarence - Vocalist
Me - Rhythm guitarist / Vocalist

Songs we played tonight:
1) Chasing Cars (super fast last chorus)
2) Sugar We're Going Down
3) Love Makes The World Go Round (PPG)

Thanks to everyone who made this possible tonight.


As usual, i've been really busy with everything, but i'm getting the hang of it.
Okay, i really need to sleep.


never take people for granted.

dear oh dear,

dear oh dear, what will this sore throat make of me.
out of all the friggin weeks, i had to have a sore throat today, and hopefully, thankfully, it will resolve before thursday.
I'm not going to school tomorrow, feeling ill, and i know what they say about perseverence, but with PE tomorrow, don't think so.
Seriously, tuesdays are the worst.
Our PE teacher takes so much out of us that soon, we'll all be sleeping in the subsequent lessons,
and we begin the questioning the effectiveness of the school's timetable.

i love incubus, and i wanna get all their albums but i got no money. :(

love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt.

jamming was good, if we played like this on the day itself, we'll rock.

i got work, and i dread going to school tomorrow.

Back to reality, away from fantasy.

13th FEB:
Really happy day, because after i reached home, i went out with my parents to watch Valkyrie at 11 plus. The show was really nice, but sad, and kinda dumb. After the movie, went with parents to sempang bedok at 2am to eat prata. Slept at 3am.

14th FEB:
Woke up at like 9, did NOTHING till 2, then went to meet ethel. Joel and Cheryl didn't go!!!
initially, wanted we wanted to watch a movie, but there's just too many people (DUH). So, we ended up at the arcade, went to Ben and Jerry's and watched a few bands perform there, and walked around till 6. XD
Slept at 9 because i was really tired.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!

15th FEB:
I'm home alone, because my family has gone to the bird park. I have jamming at 4, but now i'm doing my work at home. really sad.



INCUBUS ROCKS!!! WHEN ARE THEY COMING TO SINGAPORE???!!! I WANNA GO!!!!!
PS: heard the FOB concert wasn't that great, disappointed.

it is wonder that keeps the stars apart....

yesterday was the most lousy worst, useless day of my life.
like i said in the previous post, i will persevere, and because god has heard my cries for help, today was the happiest day so far, for this year.

I wanna thank the world for being so unfair,
for making my life so miserable yet so happy.
If the world was fair,
we'd be bored to death,
by the stoic notions of life.
But the world crushes me,
so that when i am free,
I appreciate my freedom
and the people who are free.

many good things happened to me today, and i feel like i've earned it.
i love my life now, and i will cherish it,

rosa multiflora.

If i had my ways....oh, you'll see....

SCHOOL
-a compulsory, imperfect, widely-divided system that demands a holistic education for every student.

I am sick, really sick.
Sore throat, headaches, sleep deprivation, on and off fevers.
it's tough, and my remedy is a well earned break from all this mess.
sometimes, i feel high, i feel periods where time really slows down in front of my eyes.
i see blur images on my notes at times and it goes on and off.
but i still have to go on like this, and persevere.
because i want to look back and laugh at all the things i've accomplish,
laugh at all the hard times,
have a good laugh just to say that all this is over.
until the time is ripe, my priorities are set straight and ready to be done.
i must say that i have been grumpy these few days.
it's tough when a thousand things are going on concurrently in my mind, every thought is a million worries.
and so i say that i will go on, until i am at my physical limits.

and so the blurry moon fell over her shoulder,
illuminating that last tear drop down her neck,
as i peered over her shoulder,
the sun rose from behind,
but the grass has died.
if only it had been sooner,
the world would be a better place,
regret is only a variable.

it's 1:08 now and i'm practising my guitar.
i'm in love with this song, that revolves around my life in every way, everyday, and if i may, i would fall in love all over again.

one for you,
and one for a dream to fulfill,
that makes duo.

just you, me and a picture of a picture.

I am mugging through loads of work, but yet i still have time to blog, it's such a miracle really.
Soul Night rehersals tomorrow, only looking forward to that and nothing else really.

I found a girl that sat in a field of green,
she wanted to watch the grass grow.
despite the unforgiving sun and rain,
she forged on, watching the grass grow tall and green.
i never asked why, because i knew the answer.
but i always asked why i couldn't point her the answer.
and so i avoided that question in my head, leaving her to her fate.
every night, i peered out the window, watching the stars above her head.
i could make out the dark figure amidst the tall lines,
that represented the constellations.
one night, i couldn't see the figure anymore.
only to find that she was outside my house.
she cried and said she found the answer,
weeping tears down her face,
she finally knew what made the grass greener on the other side,
that when one is suffering badly,
any alternative will always look like a brighter solution.
and with this, she never sat there again,
because she found the real alternative.

Love Makes The World Go Round - The PowerPuffGirls

i love that song, and i better love it.
you'll know why soon enough.
but it's really a nice song.

have been jamming these past few days, and hence, tonight is homework night.
jamming is good, and real original and funny.
haha, and it's fun to do really stupid things like sing like an idiot.

i can do something cool with two lighters and some tape.

i need to sleep.

sugar, we're going down.

As the title explains, today wasn't a really good day for me.
i shall not elaborate on the details.
basically, it's tough, doing your friend's work, when he/she/it should be doing the work instead.

AND

because of his/her/its mistakes, everyone suffers.

F-it.

it's 12:39, and why am i not sleeping?
because i drank a can of red bull after i came home from tuition, and went to livert's place for a pre-jamming session jamming.
it went well, very well.

I just bought Incubus cd, it was on discount.
and i really really like the song "Diamonds and Coals"

CCA day today, lotsa J1s in guitar this year, but we're definitely narrowing it down to a smaller number like 30-40?

ok, it's 12:52, and i really should be sleeping.

"give me a sign to show why i'm not blind"

Polly-Olly-Angle is greater than a Tri-angle.

Just got off the phone with a friend who says that i have a lot of free time in JC. XD
ok, i will commit to my work this year, in hope of a better results.

J1s came in this year, recognise some of them, but other than that, they look like how most of us looked when we saw the school for the first time, with J2 students walking around checking at our every move or how we look like.

i feel like i lack something in life, but honestly, i really can't put my finger to any word i think of.
maybe i just lack focus?

things due this week that i've not done.
1) maths assignments.
2) econs revision (promised someone)
3) refining of combo band rehersals.

anyway, Ying Ying (yes, sec4 classmate) just message me to say that she found 4 abandoned kittens, and is looking for a home for any of them if possible.
i wanna keep cats because they bury their own shit, and purr and look at people.
BUT
my parents won't let me keep them (DUH) because my house is small (DUH).

I'm listening to R&B now, "I'm so into you" by Tamia.
This song really reminded me of someone so dear when i was still in sec2.
It was a song that always made me feel comfortable, somewhere i could dig my feelings into.
it's all but a faded part of memory shards in my head now.

i feel so low on self-esteem in everything i do, never once held my head high because i'm afraid of falling too far.
but i'll never give up hope when i know it's there for me if i want it.
it'll be tough to escape the margin.

there's another day tomorrow, and another day will never be the same. will it?

silver-lined drum sticks are gold.

okay, remember september by Earth Wind and Fire?
well, i was at my cousin's house, and i realised that i can sing the high parts.
which is kinda shocking and weird.

so anyway, i was at whitesands yesterday trying to get a hair cut,
but the darn shop isn't open nowadays,
so i left my hair as it is.
on my way down to the escalator, i saw a small boy, running head on to a guy in the AXS station queue. he hit the guy, fell on the floor and cried.
and i'm like "okay..."
then i went downstairs. (his mum was there to help, so don't say i left him alone.)

did i mention?
i got a new phone, well not exactly a new model.
it's a W890i!!!
haha, it's not on sale in the shops already, but i love it's slim design.

tomorrow is not a nice day, even though there are J1s coming, school ends at 4. :(

i wanna go fishing on a windy, white-sand beach off the maldives where the water is a nice shade of crystal blue.

i bought a pair of drum sticks today for fun, then used my silver marker to draw on them. XD

something to remember

September by Earth Wind and Fire.

Do you remember the 21st night of september?
Love was changing the minds of pretenders
While chasing the clouds away

Our hearts were ringing
In the key that our souls were singing.
As we danced in the night,
Remember how the stars stole the night away

Ba de ya - say do you remember
Ba de ya - dancing in september
Ba de ya - never was a cloudy day

My thoughts are with you
Holding hands with your heart to see you
Only blue talk and love,
Remember how we knew love was here to stay

Now december found the love that we shared in september.
Only blue talk and love,
Remember the true love we share today

Ba de ya - say do you remember
Ba de ya - dancing in september
Ba de ya - never was a cloudy day

Ba de ya - say do you remember
Ba de ya - dancing in september
Ba de ya - golden dreams were shiny days

this song is from 1978, and it's still damn nice to me. XD
i love the way the lyrics are phrased, it's so funky and all.

i woke up at 11, slept at 3.
played a bit, but i lost 8 bucks.
haha, tonight i'm going to my uncle's place to play cards and stuff.

i think i'll go get my haircut today, it's kinda long and frizzy.
haha, maybe i'll get an afro like the guys in the video.

you keep me falling for september

it has been a tough 3 days of school, work, the late nights, the sleep deprivation, but in a way,
it has been rewarding.
haha, i'm at my uncle's house, blogging on my cousin's com (thank you. :D )
the adults are gambling outside and i need to join them soon.

so far, i'm still, listening to how deep is your love by the bee gees,
because mainstream songs now lack the poetic creativity of the oldies.

and you may not think i care for you,
when you know down inside that i really do.

hokay, i'm drunk after a few glasses of wine and i have a beer to finish.

so anyway, i'm gonna write a new song soon, hope it goes well. XD

am i worth your time, love and beauty.

i've been thinking of phrases for another song,
one that runs deep and sounds all jazz love that kind.

well, i earned quite an amount this year, just finished a card game and i'm at home now, with gp homework in front of me.
lao-ing yu sheng tomorrow (my treat)

iPanema is the song i wanna play really badly.
and i've also been bugging my dad to get me a guitar book.

omg, watch this guy, he's the reason for my new inspiration.


cool huh, i wanna play like him! :D

Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

Yesterday night was a blast!
haha, we surprised shermaine at her house last night and she cried tears of joy.
lol, this was probaby the first time we surprised someone like that and it's also the first time she got surprised like that.
We got her presents, food and something to drink, and i wrote a song for her, which i probably won't post it on my blog(partly because i gave her the lyrics as well).
HAHA, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE

hokay, in this week, my status rose quickly. XD
1) Class Chairman of 08S28
2) Guitar Ensemble's Publicity Officer.

haha, i'm gonna have a well earned break this weekend!
ciao ppl.

I hereby declare that the lyrics within the last two posts are mine!
lol, is that good enough? XD

i wanna sleep, but my mum came home and woke me up.
then now i'm finding songs by oasis.

"how now brown cow?" - Heidi. "brown cows make milk?" - fiona. "......." - timothy

haha, the title's just for fun.

i just made a song,
it's called "The Daisy Day",
and i hereby claim this song, mine and NC16.
haha.

OMGWHATABORINGTHURSDAY

when all the papers are over and i don't have to wake up early tomorrow,
i find myself, yet again with nothing to do but ROT at home.



here's a pic of the sunset at SAF yatch club, my fav spot for fishing.
and if you add in the constant wind in your face, it makes up for a pretty relaxing spot.



and here's a pic of joel and i at a factory outlet store at tampines, cheryl took the photo.
it sells all the clothes that people don't want at outrageous prices!
haha, the pants were like 4XL.
i bought a long sleeved t-shirt for 3 bucks.

alright, peace out.

Forget our memories, forget our possibilities.

Linkin Park METEORA is still, my fav LP album.
i hate the new one.
just like Eagle's new album, they seem to be impotent when singing.

anyway, i feel sad, happy, guilty, tired and angry today. all emotions in a day how tiring is that?!

physics haha, nothing to say.

Wind makes the sky blue.

Today SUCKED.
tomorrow will SUCK.
and what's worse, i'm sick with all the bloody wind blowing into my house constantly 24hours.
i think it's a windy 20 degrees outside.

i wanna sleep now because sleep never seems to be in my organiser.

study for the government.

i am currently studying econs (just started today yea...)
-international trade
-international policies
-globalisation

and i haven't touched chem at all, seriously dead meat.

good luck to me.

OMG LOL

TIFFANY BLEWS IS CANCELLED OFFICIALLY.
haha, complications arised and poof, it was gone.
BUT STILL, it's my favourite out of the new album just like how "the take over the break's over" was and still is my fav.
jammed today, chasing cars and sugar we're going down was so bad, i wanna puke in my own mouth (swallow it).
i'm disgusted at my singing.
and because i despise my singing so much, i think the crowd will love it.
haha doesn't make sense?
it's not supposed to!
lol, just watch the performance and be horrified, yet amazed!

dad: xiang, wanna watch red cliff 2 tonight?
me: okay.
(goes down to get tickets)
so we're(mummy, daddy and i) watching the show at 2:50am later and yea....i think it'll be great.
i feel like such a slacker, someone slap me so i'll wake up quick.

OMG, my birthday is less than half a year! haha, still i think it's not fair, but heck, who cares?

from tomorrow onwards is mccafe night.
goodness, i've been studying there for almost a year and the permenant staff there don't even make friends with me (but trust me, the female staff aren't even hot).
LOL, which reminds me....i was there a few days ago, and i saw a girl sitting in front of me.
i swear, she looks just like jobel from sec school.
only indian.
hahaha, i was stunned for a few seconds (and no longer cuz i don't wanna give the impression that i'm stalking)

okok, back to random stuff on the net and games and such until the movie.

HELL OR GLORY, i don't want anything in between!

The (shipped) Gold Standard

OMG, i'm in love with this song...

Sometimes I wanna quit this song and become an accountant now
But I'm no good at math and besides the dollar is down
Plant palm trees on Lake Michigan before it gets cold
I gotta feel the wind chill again before I get old

I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on my world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song
As soon as we hit the hospital, I know we're gonna leave this town
And get new passports and get get get get get out now

All the yes men said no comment
My mouth got going wrong way and all the calls started to roll in
The time my dad caught me a horse shoe crab
And I asked him if throwing it back into the sea would bring our love back

I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on my world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song
As soon as we hit the hospital, I know we're gonna leave this town
And get new passports get out now

Tell that boy I leave you alone
Like a storm, I turn my love
That's in the profit of both in the business of show

I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
Woah I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on my world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song
As soon as we hit the hospital, I know we're gonna leave this town (I know we're gonna leave this town)
And get new passports and get get get get get out now
Get get get get get out now

haha, especially when patrick says "crab", he says it so funny!
and the song is damn cute!

today!
woke up at 11:30, spent 4 hours cleaning and re-stringing electric guitar!
mum suddenly called and offered joel and i a job TOMORROW OMG
went for tuition at 3, said hi to ethel at ben & jerry's,
went to bugis junction, then tuition.
tim didn't come today(menses...just joking) cuz he came back from school and was tired.
so after tuition, i went to maccafe at downtown to study physics until 9?
and when i reached home, i had a reunion with my PS3 that went for repairs. XD
at least it was free....
hokay, so tomorrow there's guitar in the morning, and work STRAIGHT after that.
on friday, nicholas, john and i are jamming in the guitar room, where there's everything.
2 drum sets....a couple of spoilt guitars and bass....7? amps....a few mics....you get the picture.
hope it all goes well!

oh yea, here's something disgusting for everyone.
has a fart ever made you ecstatic?
well, it did for me.
once, i was sleeping.
then i farted and the feeling was good.
so i kept laughing to myself and told myself to blog about it!
and i did....
but....
it's...
kinda wrong.
haha, so anyway, i just realised that i can't grab lunch tomorrow because i gtg rush to work! darn.

ok, i'm gonna stop now because i don't know what to say.

yet another pimple joke.

still awake and alive at 2:02am.
ate indo-mee(thanks fiona) rendang flavoured.
AND I AM SO SAD THAT HEIDI TOOK MY OTHER PACKET.
now i'm going to starve to death....

6th of jan 2009 just went past people, one more week to ugh, tests..
i think i'll aim to pass, then i don't have to go for remedials.

for orientation, i can't play with ethel....they cancelled us because there are "too many" performances.
and at least i'm playing in the combo(stage) band with the ensemble friends.
so here goes:
1) Chasing cars - Snow Patrol
2) Sugar We're Going Down - FOB
3) Tiffany blews - FOB
Encore: Superman - 5 for fighting
i'll be singing all the songs and playing the guitar at the same time for three songs.
haha, that is if i can find the time to practise while i'm studying.
band members: livert-drums, john-rythm guitar/lead, nicholas-bass, me-vocals, rythm/lead guitar.
oh, and orientation night is on valentine's.

ok, i'm sleepy.

had tuition today, and tim's in the same class btw!

haha, was talking to ppl over msn and i said....
the next girlfriend i get must fall under that 3% of people who knows how to do fishing.

which is so true.

i don't know...
when i fish, my favourite thing to do is not really catching the fish.
it's staring into the wide open patches of white and blue littered all above me,
feeling the wind beneath my chin,
hearing the waves play their symphony in motion,
and for a brief moment,
i feel non-existent, but very much alive in spirit,
longing for every moment like this one to continue,
it's better than being in love,
better in every way.

sugar rush.

SCHOOL IS STARTING NEXT WEEK.
and i DO NOT have the mood to study for my exams.
basically, i can only think of one logical reason:
my hair's too long.
it's because my hair is long that i don't feel fresh everytime, hence the laziness and lack of self-motivation.
therefore, i am going to have my hair cut tomorrow.

seems like orientation night is going to be a blast especially when we have our song titles now, and hopefully, there's enough practise sessions.

i slept really late last night, and i think i only got 2 hours of sleep before hitting the alarm clock and rushing off to school for guitar.

sleepy.

wasted the whole day doing half-hearted things that make myself look bad.

i think if i can't sleep tonight, i'd probably clean my electric guitar.

ok, just signed up for deferment till Dec2009.
really scary stuff, i mean the NS portal makes NS sound fun when everyone basically knows it's compulsory and they have no choice. sigh sigh.

new year resolution for 2009:
-stop living in my dreams.

Vacancy by Kylee.
This is the end theme of Xam'd: Lost Memories, a wonderful anime that i'm currently watching.



and this book of FFX guitar collections tops the "i want" list.
haha, can't find it in s'pore, have to import, but got no financial capabilities to puchase this asset.

ok, i just realised that they've stopped showing xam'd.
i am sad.

oh well.

my family is watching ip man now and i think we're going to the yatch clud later.
where i'll do some fishing. XD

Second Post of 2009.

i just realised that i have neglected you for so long.
you have stayed in a corner, never moving forwards or backwards.
you still stand tall and firm, with that unwavering spirit.
even though there are holes that drown your emotions,
i know you well enough.
i know you're crying for me,
for my warm loving hands,
to cast you into the ocean of love.
it is my fault,
i admit,
that lately times have been rough,
and i have work to do,
but that don't mean i don't love you no more,
for who you are,
what you are.
and so my fishing rod...
i will go fishing soon.
i love you,
until you break and i have to get a new one.

haha, was supposed to go fishing at the yatch club today, but it was raining cows and goats.

tomorrow is the party and i think i might be cycling there ha ha.



i wanna thank fiona for the indo-mee (9 packets cuz heidi TOOK ONE) and for the photo.
haha, i'm keeping my indo-mee in my room and not the kitchen because i don't want my psychotic maid to steal my indo-mee.

here's like the enlarged version of the photo, well not the same one but still the same people. XD

alright, i gotta go town tomorrow, better get some shut eye.

The New Year Post (not the chinese one)

haha, 4:10am in the morning and i can't sleep well.
in fact, i haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights, just thinking about 2008 and 2009(A'lvls)
i'm glad i met up with almost the whole BC(except josh coz he was going out with family), and everyone's as funny and lame as always.
hahahaha, i love the tree joke that riz told me and the one about the king's guards that lim told.
i think i can entertain people better now.
(entertainment skill +1)

so there's an 08S28 pot luck this fri at shermaine's place, and i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BRING.

new year resolution:
1) STUDY SMART FOR A'LEVELS
2) re-emphasize what's on point 1.
3) do my best so that the ensemble can get gold with honours for SYF
4) make more new year resolutions starting from point 5.

haha, it's only been 4hrs 16mins, can't expect much yeah?

i get to perform twice on orientation night, one is with the combo band in the guitar ensemble and the other is an accoustic with ethel.
although, there's been no word on any of the songs for both performances.

i hope they let me play one of FOB's new songs, cuz i modified the tabs from ultimate guitar and it sounds damn right!

the music at downtown stopped at 3++

i'm going to the beach later in the day! haha, have not soaked up the sun's rays for quite some time now. think i'll go play soccer.

okok, somehow i'm better at memorising the guitar rhythms than the lyrics.
so i'll go play now till morning.

maybe i'll just sleep at the beach.

thanks heidi, fiona, lim, sonia, riz, tim, shiwee for today, it was really fun and bastard as always, let's have a great year ahead.

PS: shi wee has finished his holiday homework!!! yay!!!

pps: i am barely halfway and some people didn't realise that there was any till a few days ago.