that wriggly feeling inside.

i've just said my goodnights to someone whom i just knew.
it's something special, it really is.
though it's only a first impression, it's a lasting one.
sweet.

10 days left to the start of my A'levels.
just like any other student, i'd say that i do not have enough time, not enough confidence to do it.
but instead, i'd say that i have wasted time that could've been time well spent on studying, that i could've done better.
and now, i feel guilt, shame that would empower me with the gift of endurance to persevere through the night.
even if it's 1am, i'm still studying.
and i wish all my friends out there all the best.
it's only those who give a damn about what they do that they actually get it.
crude, but that's life.



perhaps, there's hope that a week's effort may be just what we've needed all the while.
don't give up, and turn hope into action.
because we're only old enough to know, but too young to care.
A is for A'levels!

white flames

college day was just weird, less than 10mins and we're off stage.

went to play pool with clarence today, it was really long since we last played.
ate at ajisen ramen afterwards, really good stuff.
then went to catch angels and demons with family, so i'm still awake now.

sometimes, i wonder if what i do really has any rewards.
i think i'm just a selfless fool, giving up what i can for others ever so willingly.
i don't even know why i'm nice to you, when all i get is shit.
at least i know people who are like me, and i know what they deserve.
they deserve better.

today(sunday)
i'm gonna stay at home and do work, and it's something i should do more often these days.
andandand practice tango and 13 days in france. :D