sometimes, we cannot forget people or things. just like that old pillow that you hugged every night, thrown away but never forgotten. people are no different. we remember with a hint of regret, a longing for the past. yet we stay in the present with only an album in our heads, and another album in our hands.
It's been long since I blogged, but nevertheless, here's a post for the memories.
Everything's fine, and Zoe and I recently celebrated our 8 months together. Happy 8 months and 2 days dear! I love you! We actually went to the art museum for free because there was a wedding there until we got chased out cuz we needed to buy tickets and got caught by the guard. XD Still, it was a very fun day and we dressed up nice. (: I don't want this to end, I don't want this to lose momentum. I only want what can help us, love and grow for each other.
It's been a quick year, and there's only 2 months left. I hope next year's even faster, because I can't wait. XD
This is still my favourite song from Anberlin, one which i would (almost) religiously listen to everyday. I hope you find meaning in it too because it has given me a lot.
One last glance from a taxi cab Images scar my mind Four weeks felt like years Since your full attention was all mine The night was young and so were we Talked about life, God, death, and your family Didn't want any promises, Just my undivided honesty, and you said
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better Oh oh, things are gonna change, oh, they're gonna change
I am the patron saint of lost causes A fraction of who I once believed (change) only a matter of time Opinions I would try and rewrite If life had background music playing your song I've got to be honest, I tried to escape you But the orchestra plays on, and they sang
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better Oh oh, things are gonna change
[Chorus 2x] Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through Dismantle me down (repair) You dismantle me You dismantle me
Give me time to prove Prove I want the rest of yours (prelude) Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you It's not that I hang on every word I hang myself on what you repeat It's not that I keep hanging on I'm never letting go
[Chorus 2x] Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through Dismantle me down (repair) You dismantle me You dismantle me
Save me from myself Save me from myself Help me save me from myself Save me from myself
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better Oh oh, things are gonna change
[Chorus 4x] Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through Dismantle me down (repair) You dismantle me You dismantle me
i just got another two week mc today. so i guess i'll be doing my own training at home, and hopefully, i'm not lazy enough to apply for my PDL.
recently, a lot has been going through my head, and i wonder if the sun will keep beating as hard. it's too hot these days to even take a stroll. i hope it's just the season and not global warming.
i wanna repair my electric, because the mirror seems to have some stain that can't be cleaned. and this time, i'll let them change the strings because i'm too lazy to do it myself.
i need to go back tekong tomorrow, to endorse my MC. i wonder if i'll see my friends.
it's a month plus since i blogged but the main 2 events that took up my time are NS and MC. it started as a small rash and it spread to both my limbs, and soon i couldn't walk. but now i can thanks to medication that could ruin my liver. anyhow, i'm going back to CGH on wednesday for a checkup and hopefully, i can go back to tekong.
during this MC period, i passed my BTT and we managed to celebrate our 3 months together.
although we were both ill, it didn't spoil our day or anything. i love zoe. (: she always cracks me up with the funniest things. and does the cutest things too. i gave her a bunch of purple flowers because it makes her happy. and she makes me happy too.
tomorrow, we'll be together for 2 months. i still remember how she said yes 2 months ago, under the setting sun, above the calm waves, surrounded by palm, sand and people, and the wind, and the slightly cloudy sky. we had ice cream before that. and a long walk by the beach.
tomorrow, i'll still be feeling the same way about her. with that sweet smile that never seems to fade and the same laughter that brought me to her. all i need to do for us is to love her, myself and us.
well, i'm going to serve my country next monday. so if war does break out, i hope i can save whoever reads this in time. 83 items upon enlistment and so many more to bring. honestly, i'm looking forward to it, and i can't wait to make new friends.
it's 8:45 and i've finished making zoe's present. it took me 3 days to make, so i hope she likes it. XD i'm waiting for her to come before we go to the zoo.
the weather is unforgiving these days, but i hope that today, mother nature can gimme a break. today is gonna be fun.
tomorrow's 1st of april, i think i might play a small prank on dear if she doesn't read this. XD we're still going strong, and she did the sweetest thing today. i think i fell for her all over again. (:
recently, i've been playing FFXIII. and my dad encourages me to play while my mum tells me to stop. i like it when dad's at home. XD
today, life was screwed up. the only 3 things good about today was: 1) i got my pay. 2) i'm still alive. 3) i'm still with zoe.
sometimes, i may not understand everything that goes on in life, but i'll do my best to cope with it. no, i'll do the best. and when it's tough, i'll try harder. still, it sucks when shit stares at you in the face and you know you gotta pick it up. obviously, it feels good to wash your hands and disinfect it afterwards. me? i'm still holding the shit. and i'm trying my best to bury it.
and i would never want it any other way. it has been and still is, a great time with zoe and it can still be greater. so many ideas, so many things, and all to make it better. she's been super nice and good to me, and i just hope that my best will make her feel like how i do, or even better.
i love the little things we do together.
the weather has been unforgiving though. i wish global warming was a government conspiracy sometimes.
i just finished watching all the episodes of K-ON! i can't believe that i watch these kinda shows. but it's good.
maybe it's a little too late to be worrying, but it's there and it's a piece of paper.
somehow, everything's gonna fall right into place. if we only had a way to make it fall faster everyday.
i'm gonna reach sch at 2. i'm gonna wait for my grades. i'm gonna take it. i'm gonna go straight home. and end up drinking either way. then think about how i wanna live my life. and dream about how my life could've been for better or worse.
today i spent the whole day with love, she looks even better today for some reason, and she looks so good when she smiles, it melts my heart every time.
i love it when it's scenic and just the two of us there, it makes the world go round. XD
i'm gonna have a good rest tonight, i'm still feeling the effects from natas. and tonight, i'll dream of someone who has made my dreams come true.
i just reached home and it's around 1. i've been sleeping at 1 and waking up at 8 for the past two days before staying at the booth for almost 12 hours straight everyday. and it has FINALLY, yes, FINALLY ended.
yesterday, my love made lunch for me in a box and brought it over to surprise me. i feel fortunate to have someone like her, and no one's ever packed lunch for me before. so it really gave me the strength to continue. everyday she'll visit me at the fair, i feel fortunate. (:
damage dealt to me by the fair: 1) sore throat 2) super blood shot eyes 3) loss of appetite 4) sick of japanese resorts 5) momentary fear of foreigners
i have my bacardi with me now, i'm gonna take 3 shots and try to K.O until i cannot see the blood in my eyes.
except that i dropped my bloody laptop and cracked a corner off.
natas fair was tiring, 12 hours of talking and hardly any breaks. at least i could get to see her today, it really made my day and drove me on to work. (:
i downloaded the Zero no Kotae song by Uverworld the day before. and i've played it 78 times on my itunes to this very sentence.
it's 5:24 am on this sentence. and i can't sleep, it's hot.
there's a baby lizard trying to make a habitat out of my desk, and i can't find it. i'm paranoid that it'll drop on my lap and i'll freak out. but not as paranoid as some other stuff. i sometimes wonder if i have grown up. that's why this time, i'm supposed to see for myself.
it has been a good few days, and i love it when she clutches tighter even if her hands aren't big. and when we gaze, i'm lost in her.
yesterday, i went with zoe to sentosa to experience the new stuff there. it was a really nice day with overcast skies and hardly any sun, but due to the rain, it was pretty humid.
still, we had a great time seeing all the stuff there. first we went to imbiah station which zoe thought was "imbah station" when we saw the map. XD
i took a picture with this goat because i'm born in the year of the goat.
then we took the luge down to beach station,where we decided to go for ice-cream.
here's what happens with zoe and ice-cream
before ice-cream
after ice-cream
the ice-cream guy was just weird. i said "can i have a macadamia surprise?" and he replied "strawberry surprise?" and i'm like "no, macadamia surprise" then when i asked for a taste test of berryfruit flavour, he almost went to scoop strawberry until i told him berryfruit AGAIN. sheesh.
if you ignore the upside down words that says no diving, it'll look like a sign saying "no surfacing"
i take pride in being able to center pictures well. (:
after the beach, we went to get airbrush tattoos, which i completely forgot to take photos of. XD but i got a sun tattoo and she got a butterfly tattoo. i think the sun tattoo makes me look tribal.
soon after, we went to finish our sky rides and luge rides, then went to Chili's (i think that's the name) at universal studios to eat. honestly, it wasn't very good, but the service was good. the waiter came every few moments to check on us, asking to give any comments.
oh, there was this huge Hershey's shop nearby, and a huge Hershey mascot walking around.
if only the choco bar was real.
by then it was already late, and after a quick stop at vivo, we went home.
i found a video of UVERworld this morning, with the song zero no kotae. watch it because it is super meaningful (a common trait in jap songs)
"they say people remember something before they die, if that's true i'll probably remember loving."
one time, i asked why people don't make wishes upon stars that stay there, because shooting stars don't last. someone told me that shooting stars are rare and better cherished, because they don't last. and just like that, life's brighter.
"but still i pray on the last day, that i'll remember being loved." -UVERworld
everyday passes so slowly, but yesterday was the slowest. went out with the fee, hei, zoe, tim and lim to celebrate early birthdays, and blow re-lightable candles. eat.shop.eat.shop.eat.shop. that was what we practically did.
i hope fee uploads photos soon. XD
oh, after lunch, there was this girl who was sleeping by herself at one of the tables. i dared tim 10 bucks to sit right in front of her and stare at her until she wakes up. he did it, and she gave him the evils when she woke up. i had to give tim 10 bucks. 10 dollars! i would rather give the 10 dollars to charity. oh wait, i already did when i gave it to him. XD *claps to myself*
at night, someone relied on me. i could be depended on. i'm glad.
